Above you, there are thousands of fireflies-like thoughts, some are happy thoughts, some are sad thoughts, some are thought-provoking thoughts, some are fairy-tale thoughts. So which thoughts will you be having today?
"Hurtful, painful memories. Memories of deep regrets. Memories of hurting and being hurt. Memories of being abandoned. Only those with such memories buried in their hearts can become stronger, more passionate and emotionally flexible. And only those can attain happiness."
The Zombie Kid
What did the boy really want? What did the mother really give?
The Cheerful Dog
Do I still remember how to cut my leash? Do I have the courage to then cut my leash?
Finding the Real, Real Face
What the shadow witch had stolen from them was not their real, real faces but their courage to find happiness.
Will I be able to find back my courage to get back my real life then?
于文文 say the first half of the song is a love letter of a daughter to the dad, and the second half is a love letter to the daughter's groom. I was particularly touched especially when 伊一 shared her father's letter to her, on growing up and on wedding. And I thought of my dad when I hear this song. All the reasons why I chose this path now is because of him. I always remember that scene "看最好的我走进爱我的心里 让幸福继续陪着前进".
I always know song writing is tough even though I don't have the music talent. But watching the season <<无限歌谣季>> really prove how tough it is to turn someone who don't know how to sing into someone who can sing, write and maybe even dance.
Yesterday when I watched the second song written by 薛之谦 & 杨迪 again, I went back to find the first song he wrote with 岳云鹏. If I could, I would have downloaded Kugou but sadly country restrictions. Because I think I'm smitten by him haha. He has a pained look whenever he is not being funny. And a tough past which probably contributed to his pained look. All (talented) musicians probably have wider spectrum of their emotions. Maybe that's why they easily fall into the abyss of depression.
Funny that I don't have any talent but I can if I don't control myself, fall into such abyss of depression. That's why sometimes I do ask myself,
p/s: No matter what risks I raised, the project will continue to repeat its mistakes. This is the reality, of how ambitious powerful people thinks they can make fast food style system implementation in this upcoming 21st century. I shudder to think of the 22nd century. GA, please, I don't wish to re-incarnate.
I heard this song on 2nd June, on a train to Amsterdam Muiderpoort. The first train station I alighted a decade ago after the snow storm with my friend CL.
I have been thinking a lot of things. From friendship, work, love, marriage... I wondered, and i pondered as this song repeats again and again.
These days, I give up alot on family and friends because of the huge amount of work and stress. To the extent I worry daily, if i will die of overwork like the Japanese do. I worry about the pain on the left of my chest daily. I worry about the lack of sleep. And I think about the past where I have my friends to support me then.
How do I resolve this vicious life cycle? How will GA guide me? When I lost my wallet the next day (3rd June)... the very first time I lost a wallet.. and in a foreign country... I started reflecting. Has life brought me to such a state that I am incapable of even performing my every day duties. I am grateful that GA still protected me (I think). At least I only lost a credit card and an ov card. I dont remember what else is in the wallet other than cash and receipts. And because I got tired that I gave up collecting receipts, it felt I got tired of living and spending too.
It took me one week... and I still question myself every day... why did I lost my wallet. Is it so that I dont lose my sanity and thus this is just a pre-warning.
Month of June, where I take leave every mon & fri to force myself to rest.
Will I get the respite I need desperately? Do I know what life is installed for me? Can I find my path?
25th June update:
After taking 3 days off, I cancelled the rest of my last 2 week leave ... To be taken in Aug :)
I was so happy to watch <<我的少女時代>> in Jan. So happy that I forgot my sadness then.
But now that I sit down to blog about all the quotes, all the sadness have come back to me...
时间会改变一个人，会改变很多事。
但是，只有一件事不会被改变，那就是---回忆！
the memories each time I'm cutting celery...
the memories each time I use the thumb drive...
the memories each time I type my password...
No wonder some people try to alter memories... Maybe if that is successful, the world will be less painful... and less love...
或许一直以来都是远远望着谁的背影，
却忘了身边让自己最自在相处的那个人，最让人动心。
I agree we always take for granted the Present. This nicely boxed up gift, who will always be there. Or at least you thought so. Until one day you realised this gift is missing. And then you start getting frantic where it went. Even if I'm prepared for the Present to be lost. I still wish for otherwise. After all everybody wishes for the wistful Past. Which will always be glorified in our memories.
人理所当然的忘记是谁风里雨里一直默默守护在原地。
People in my line realised this phenomenon. Before we had this job, friends were never committed to meet us that frequently. But after this job, every time they know we are back, they will schedule a catch-up session. And we ended up seeing them more often than before. So sometimes I wonder is leaving a good thing? It might make people treasure us more but actually we are the same we. So has it been mis-valued just because we are no easily accessed by them. I guess I digress again.
世界太快了，总有一首歌，你忘不掉；
人海茫茫，总有一个人，守候在角落，等你回首。
Yes the world is going full speed right now. I don't know if I can handle the next avalanche of questions directed at me. But then it could just be me assuming. Maybe nobody will ask me anything. Because everybody is busy asking questions too anyway.
在那个没有手机，没有网路的年代
消失，是很容易的事！
In this time, people can still get lost. My sponsored child for e.g. has now left for greener pastures. I always know she is the intellectual one. Funny I once thought that I will improve my Chinese letter writing for her sake. And that Doc can also write to her. And suddenly I was told that she has left this community for further studies. And the unique journey has ended. I do wish her well in her future studies from the bottom of my heart. Just that I realised this gap feeling I have in me keeps growing.
And so I thought about it, if I R today, will they still be able to contact me. Do I want them to contact me? Will I be gossiped about. In my world though, I no longer can leave silently. Footsteps are everywhere. But at the same time I am thankful of all the blog posts. Just have to get used to the digital imprints.
You really don’t know much about the sweetness that life has to offer.
I want to take things easy at the amber light instead of coming to a halt at the red light or going full-speed at the green light.
<<Oh My Venus / 오 마이 비너스>>
I wish I am at amber light now too. But maybe I have been on amber light for the last few years.
So since Dec 2015, it has been green light and I have to keep driving. Even though I'm so tired. That I only slept less than 5 hours a day for the last few days. That I nurse a headache. I kept driving. Driving myself to finish <Return of the cuckoo>. To understand why and what. To realise that Chu Ge Ge resemble Doc so much. To miss Doc's way of living. The naggings. The actions Chu Ge Ge took.
I always believe that everything happens for a reason. When I saw this last friday, I was shocked. I had reached the last episode of the drama then. I had been depressed for a few days, partly cos I need to submit my R on Sunday. Decided to go Crown to catch the CNY deco and watch my colleague play poker. Who knows I ended up lending a ear and hearing a sad tale. And seeing this phrase "祝君好运". I always wonder why the female lead name is 君好. And what does the song 祝君好 means. Aas her favourite song for so many years, I only know it today, what it really means to her. It saddens me to know that perhaps, I hardly know her.
Maybe I'm like 君好. I cannot decide. So I let GA decide for me. In a way, I let circumstances decide. But in a way, I feel that is because I just take one step at a time, letting the puzzle unravel before putting the next piece.
Sometimes I wish I can go to the future and see what's it like. Then decide on the present what should be the steps. But this isn't like a novel where I can read the ending first and then go back to the middle. But everybody keeps asking me what is my next move. Is not that I didn't. But sometimes one cannot rush the follow-ups either right. Alot of times, my actions impact not only myself but others too. So it cannot be just me making all the decisions.
Just like I keep WA someone that has blocked me, all I can do is just wait... and perhaps blog this entry in hope to understand why....
p/s: I got an answer why even before this blog is published. Such is life...
So on such a life day.. I wish such a person to have the best luck in such a future...
That’s what heaven is. It is God’s way of finally answering all the questions you had been asking in your life. But I have lots, lots of questions. Would 5 people I meet be enough to make sense of my yesterdays? Or maybe, right here, right now, I am meeting all these people to get my answers? After all, didn’t Mitch Albom says that there are no random acts. And that we are all connected.
I guess that is terribly bad news for me. Because for the past few weeks, I felt that my privacy has been invaded. And I have been wishing to be left alone. But Blue Man tells me, that no life is a waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone. So I have been wasting my past few weeks wishing to be alone. Because I am unable to handle the close proximity of these strangers, strangers that are just family you have yet to come to know.
Sigh. In some sense it is the truth. These are the only family members I have here. And like all family, we each have our own characters and quirks. And thus we will have our own squabbles and discomforts. But I build a wall so high around myself, and keep myself so secluded that sometimes I guess I asked for it when I get excluded. Because people like fairness, and thus if you don’t include them, they find it hard to include you too. And I can sense it better now because of the proximity which explains my resentment towards the move. This also explains why on a sunny weekend, I am cooping myself at home, watching the film version of a book by the author which I still very much admired. And retrieving the rest that I was not entitled to last weekend.
Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to somebody else.
I sacrificed my last weekend because I have no excuse not to go. Even though it may sound like a nice gesture by the company, I admit I did not appreciate it because of all the hassle it had involved, all the flying hours it had accumulated and only for a short break. It had not been my style and if I really chose to fly that far, I would have spent more time. But that sounded like an ungrateful kid. We all make sacrifices but I was angry over my sacrifice.
Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do to others, we do to ourselves. No one is born with anger. It builds up over time, with the things we don't say and the things we bury. When we die, the soul is freed of it. Free to see the truth.
Hmm, though I don’t envision myself to die just to see the truth, that I had been childish to be angry with myself. That I have been stubborn to ask too many questions; not knowing if I will ever get the answers or not. But I did wonder, if I ever know I am going to die, will I do something different? And when I die, what happens to the lost love?
Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory, memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end," she said. "Love doesn't."
So that was what memories are for, to accompany you when your loved ones depart. It need not be permanent departure. Although sometimes I do worry about that; especially pertaining to my parents. It is often said that parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move on. They move away. And it is not until much later, as the next birthday comes, as the body gets weaker, that the children will understand, their stories and accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their parents.
But what if I had accomplished nothing? Zilch. What if the feeling that I was never supposed to be there, was right all these while. The feeling that I never belong here, that I am a nobody. Would I ever meet a Tala (which means ‘star’ in Tagalog and reminds me so much of my sponsored child) to explain to me my existence and worth? Maybe I should pay someone a visit. And understand that everyone has a purpose to life that not only affects their own lives but unknowingly touches the lives of others.
And that when the life ends, it is an opportunity to examine our lives, who we have touched, the choices we have made and the consequences of our choices. It was never about judgement day.
Photo thoughts: When I was thinking of a photo to accompany the post, Luna Park came into my mind. Later while researching I found out that the fictional Ruby Pier draw many parallels to the real life amusement park "Luna Park" located in Coney Island. These parallels include...
1) Both parks are named after people close to the original owner
- Luna Park for owner's sister Luna
- Ruby Pier for owner's wife Ruby (one of the people Eddie meets in heaven)
2) Both parks had fires that lead to the loss of the original ownership
- Ruby Park's fire leads to the selling of the park
- Because of the expensive costs, Luna Park is let go by the original owner(s) (not sold away)
3) Both parks had/have very grand entrances
Credits: The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom (Book and Film version)
I thought I will guai guai proceed into 2012 without any noise.. Till I heard this last night
(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
I always loved musicals. But I haven't been
to one since Sound of music. Thankfully this was in MBS. Sometimes I'm
glad SG likes to revamp places. Even the ten mile junction has renamed.
Sometimes not recognising SG means I get to be re-introduced to SG which
is what my friends have been doing to me this week (the latest
attraction I heard is Gardens of the Bay.. And I still have not seen the
laser show @ MBS though)
(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made from what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
I
haven't been in SG for the new year for the last 2 years already. Thus
spring cleaning has been done in a rush. And memories of the yesteryear gets tucked in a corner once again. And I always wanted to ask,
what should I do to them?
(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore
Perhaps this time, Wicked would knock some sense into me. For Good.
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
>> Note: In Nov 2013, you guys who had been my memory for so long... are now somewhere out there. Hopefully no longer tucked in a corner...
I remember how political apathetic I was back then. 5 years. Time flies. My political knowledge is still stuck at 10/100. I still like Sylvia Lim. I still wish George Yeo in too. I still wonder why all the talents are in Aljunied. Why can't some of them come to my constituency.
So what can I do? I am stuck in Melbourne. May is the month where it is very important for me since young. It is the day where I usually get broke. Kidding. But it has been planned that if there is any date I would return back, they are xmas, cny and end May. So between family and country, I really don't have much of a choice. It is decided that I will fly back end May.
And then I read about the opposition and realised Mr. Goh is part of that A-team I had like in the previous election. But what is the use when the rest of his team is so quiet that I hardly know if they can talk at all.
Friend tell me you vote not for your constituency but for the nation. On whose voice you want in the parliament. But I can't hear these voices? Not from the incumbent nor the other side.
Friend tell me life is like this. Win some, lose some. But why do some have to vote talents away and some have to vote imbecile in due to the theory of 'the lesser evil'.
Then I have friends saying it is such a hassle, it is irritating to keep seeing and hearing. Of course too much of something starts to get tiring. And nobody likes to hear bashing constantly. We need to hear something of substance still. We need to know if our dreams are reachable.
And what if both are useless. Is it worth the flight back? But it is my voice. Would I live to regret? I was told off to stop being silly and to just stay here. But I have the ever growing regret, the feeling that my voice has been robbed off, silenced. And that I feel like a spineless coward hiding in a faraway city.. because I could not decide which is the lesser evil. I feel like I turned my back to my country.
Fair is foul, and foul is fair:
Hover through the fog and filthy air.
- Macbeth
Funny that my friend always said that I will give up my country one day because of my yearning to swim into the big ocean. And that the past few months I am here, everybody like to ask if I'm staying here permanently. But I never wanted to give up my country, for the sole reason that it is where my family is. But then when it is a choice between family and country, it sure is a tough decision and whichever decision I made, I lived to regret it as I do now.
I can only hope that Mr. Goh will get back his deposit. Perhaps I will drop by a cathedral to seek forgiveness for being so cowardly.. and causing so much mayhem back home.
And I promised myself that next time, I would register as an overseas voter regardless. But I am fully aware, this year, may be the only chance. And opportunity doesn't knock twice.
Due to the LDR mood.. I selected 2 inflight film on LDR theme before sleeping the rest of the night away...
First movie was 'Going The Distance'. The lady was from San Francisco who did a 6 weeks intern in New York. And met a guy there. Initially they did not want anything permanent as she is only there 6 weeks. But on the last day of the 6 weeks, they could not let go and decided to have a long distance relationship instead.
It was funny to see them make claims over each other after fear of unfaithfulness. Using words like 'exclusive to each other only' reminded me of how my colleague is doing that too to make claims on his gf.
When the male protagonist flew to San Francisco on Thanksgiving, she was so happy. But the moment he touched down back at New York, he missed her even more. Thus I wondered if absence makes the heart grows fonder, then perhaps in the first place, you should not even fly over to make things worst by making emotions run deeper.
Oh ya and I remember a scene where another LDR couple suggested to him to try phone sex.. Lots of it, to ease the loneliness. And he wanted to try it with her. But they were arguing over they were in a car or in a plane, and she was lying about what she wore saying it's a fantasy afterall. In the end the moment passed and it failed. Perhaps phone sex may work. But I guess you cannot have 2 person to lead in the phone sex. Imagine arguing over the venue, no wonder all the urge died fast especially when phone sex has just lived on imagination alone.
And everybody was saying that a relationship cannot last without seeing each other for months. She tried to find reporting jobs in New York but it was slum period. Likewise he was unable to find a job in San Francisco. Although she was willing to wait tables in New York, and he did ask her to come over as he really really want her to live together. But she had an offer with a newsagent in San Francisco and he could not bear to see her give up such a good chance just to be with him as no matter how sweet the initial period will be, she will resent him later on.
But they cannot carry on the relationship with no physical contact either. And thus he steeled his heart and parted with her confessing her deepest feelings, and him finally shedding tear (he only cried at his first break-up).
6 months later, he did quit his job (which he hate) and moved to Los Angelas which he explained to the geographically clueless lady, is just an hour flight away from Sans Francisco.
And the ending is a happy ending I guess. But I remember this part where they argued as she felt why she had to be the one that made the move, why he kept saying there will be a way. A way which she can't see. Will there really be a way?
Hanamizuki (Dogwood)
Meaning: To reciprocate
May your love bloom a hundred year
Is the second movie I watched. Also on LDR. A young scholarly girl and a young fisherboy knew each other and fell in love. But since young, the girl had wanted to go university. To study English. She was born in Canada. As she studied hard, the distance drifted. Sometimes he wished she will fail and stay in Hokkaido with him. But she did go uni.
There was a senpai whom was close to her. He got jealous. He wanted to give up fishing which is his family business. To be in Tokyo with her. But his father had a heart attack the next day and he had to look after his mum and sis. And as he had to persist in his dream (he said God was punishing him for giving it up a dream held by his grandfather days), he wants her to persist in hers too. And they have to split up.
He went on to marry. She went on to live and work in New York. Where her senpai had helped her settled down. She was supposed to marry her senpai but he died in a photography mission. Seems that fate played a trick as that was also the day his wife left him. And yet for the next few years, they drowned in their own sorrows in Hokkaido and New York separately.
Anyway a Jap movie always end sweetly and all the characters will end up with their first love, including them. I remember this scene where she went back Canada to see her birthplace and saw the boat carving he had given to her for Xmas in a pub (it has a flag that says Ganbatte Sae) and knew he had came by a few days ago only. Sadly they missed each other still.
Laugh and cry,
live and die
Life is a dream we are dreaming
Day by day I find my way
Look for the soul and the meaning
Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore
People run, sun to sun,
Caught in their lives ever flowing
Once begun, life goes till it's gone
We have to go where it's going
Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore
And you say you see
When you look at me
The reason you love life so
Though lost I have been
I find love again
And life just keeps on running
And life just keeps on running
You look at me and life comes from you
Bflygal's comments:
Was watching Bicentennial Man, a 1999 movie which followed loosely Isaac Asimov's story. And I so love Isaac Asimov. I remember when I first read his book I, Robot (1950), I was either in my primary school days or early secondary school days and his Three laws of robotics blew me.
1. A robot may not injure a human being or, through inaction, allow a human being to come to harm.
2. A robot must obey any orders given to it by human beings, except where such orders would conflict with the First Law.
3. A robot must protect its own existence as long as such protection does not conflict with the First or Second Law.
I don't quite remember this novella (some vague idea but not clear remembrance) partly as he wrote a lot of short stories on his robot series that I cannot really remember the stories exactly already. But he was probably the reason why I used to be so fascinated with AI. Of course sometimes I wish I could be in such area but as of now, I am still unable to figure out how.
However seeing how Andrew, the robot, actually using his knowledge to made an advancement in medical world, makes me wish I have such a skill. It is afterall still in my intent to mix IT with medical. But hmm I remember years ago when I thought about this topic, I had the following conclusion.
Anyway I'm thankful though that she enlighten me greatly with regards to IT & Healthcare, a topic that I have been thinking about for sometimes. She reminded me at least that as doctors, the main aim is to cure not only the disease but to heal the person too. This is something I hope to remember forever.. never to let IT replace the doctors.
Because I know towards the end, Andrew had put Portia on a life support. So that they can both end their life together… Don’t really like that idea but oh well, he had went through deaths of Sir, Little Miss.. and it had gotten a point that he realised
“Will every human being that i care for just leave?”
Which saddened him greatly. That’s why he started creating prosthetic parts suitable for a human.
I remember initially when he was with Little Miss, Little Miss had fallen for him. And Little Miss was hinting to him that she likes him… the conversation goes like this:
Little Miss: I have this friend and he's smart and funny, and whenever I’m with him, I don't wanna be with Frank.
Andrew: I can see how that would create a problem.
Little Miss: Yes...
Andrew: but the answer is staring you in the face... marry your friend.
Sadly Little Miss knows that… “a relationship between us would be impossible. It would never, could never, work out.”
So they skip 2 generations while Little Miss got married to Frank and had a son who later got married too and had a daughter who is a spitting image of her grandmother.
And Andrew and Portia first meeting wasn’t exactly pleasant because he resented her for looking like Little Miss haha. So it was funny the first time Andrew went to find Portia and told her he did not like her at all. Then she replied “It couldn't be more clear if you spit in my face.” Which he replied “I can't. I don't have a mucous gland.” Talking about robot’s humour… hahahha
Then I remember there is this part when Andrew talks about making love
That you can lose yourself. Everything. All boundaries. All time. That two bodies can become so mixed up, that you don't know who's who or what's what. And just when the sweet confusion is so intense you think you're gonna die... you kind of do. Leaving you alone in your separate body, but the one you love is still there. That's a miracle. You can go to heaven and come back alive. You can go back anytime you want with the one you love.
Then Rupert Burns asked “And you want to experience that?“ of which Andrew replied “Oh, yes, please. “
Then Rupert said “So do I.”
And I cannot stop laughing that I almost rolled off my bed hahahhaa...
To think when Sir first explains about sex, he had commented that “It all sounds so very... messy.”
and after learning the fate of most sperm cells, he actually “feels badly for them.”
Yet this is the same robot that many decades later, wants to experience personally what exactly does lovemaking entails.
And of course he will need a target to “experiment” that and obviously it is none other than the granddaughter since Little Miss is no longer young to be able to accompany him. It amused me when Portia told him frankly that “I like you. I even understand you some of the time. But I'm not about to invest my emotions in a machine.” Of which he responded that it must be genetics to skip a generation because that was exactly what Sir told Little Miss to not invest her emotions in a machine too.
Afterall, like what Sir said, “Andrew, People grow through time, then for u, time is a completely different proposition, for u, time is endless.”
So it is perfectly logical that it is impossible to have a relationship with a machine, no matter how humanely like he is.
Right?
But then Portia contradicts herself when she said “What's right for most people in most situations isn't right for everyone in every situation! Real morality lies in following one's own heart.”
I still remember when Andrew first had his nerve feelings installed, he had asked Portia to poke him to feel pain. And then proceed to demand a kiss from her for the sake of science as an experiment. And when she gave him a chaste kiss, he said not that, and just went on to passionately kiss her. It took her by surprise so much she cannot even reject. That sure is taking advantage of a lady haha.
And the best part is at the church where she was planning to get married to a typical guy and he demanded that he just want a short kiss but he continued for quite a period of time. She then tried to stop him and reminded him that he only wanted a short kiss, which he quick-wittedly replied, “I lied.” And started giving facts that she want him just as much due to her increased heart rate and her rising temperature and whatever body tell-tale signs a robot can detect immediately. Basically in his words, “I know love isn't fair! I'm reading your heart. And asking you to follow it.” Haha so I guess one should never fall in love with a robot or a doctor who can read your body tell-tale signs easily. Too dangerous haha.
Of course back to reality, Portia realizes that “But if this really works between us? You and I will never be accepted. We can't be married or anything.” Because he is still a machine and no matter how he tried to petition to the World Congress to recognise him as human, which would allow him and Portia to be legally married. In the end he is still rejected, as he is essentially immortal, and in their eyes, an immortal cannot be human. Hmm I remember he tried to rebuke that he is as much of a robot with human body parts as a human is as much of a human with robotic parts i.e. prosthetic parts.. but it makes sense that he is no matter what, immortal still. Guess being too perfect isn’t that good afterall as imperfections make us individuals.
So he did the next best thing he could do. He asked Rupert for a blood infusion into his system. And they had a humorous conversation on the fuzziness of human condition.
Andrew Martin: You've been a great example, Rupert. How quickly will the blood degrade my system?
Rupert Burns: Oh, I don't know. You exercise, eat right, I'd say 30, 40 years.
Andrew Martin: That's a little vague, chief. You don't know exactly how long I'll last?
Rupert Burns: Sorry.
[puts his hand on Andrew's shoulder]
Rupert Burns: Welcome to the human condition.
And when he next petition again to be recognized as a human, he had a truly touching conversation with the President.
Andrew Martin: I've always tried to make sense of things. There must be some reason I am as I am. As you can see, Madame Chairman, I am no longer immortal.
President Marjorie Bota: You have arranged to die?
Andrew Martin: In a sense I have. I am growing old, my body is deteriorating, and like all of you, will eventually cease to function. As a robot, I could have lived forever. But I tell you all today, I would rather die a man, than live for all eternity a machine.
President Marjorie Bota: Why do you want this?
Andrew Martin: To be acknowledged for who and what I am, no more, no less. Not for acclaim, not for approval, but, the simple truth of that recognition. This has been the elemental drive of my existence, and it must be achieved, if I am to live or die with dignity.
President Marjorie Bota: Mister Martin, what you are asking for is extremely complex and controversial. It will not be an easy decision. I must ask for your patience while I take the necessary time to make a determination of this extremely delicate matter.
Andrew Martin: And I await your decision, Madame Chairman, thank-you for your patience.
[turns to Portia and whispers]
Andrew Martin: I tried.
And finally he succeeded in acknowledging his humanity and validating his marriage.
World Congress Moderator: Ladies and Gentlemen: Ms. Marjorie Bota, President of the World Congress.
President Marjorie Bota: According to the records at the NorthAm Robotics Company, the robot also known as Andrew Martin, was powered up at 5:15 pm on April 3rd, 2005. In a few hours, he'll be 200 years old, which means that with the exception of Methuselah and other biblical names, Andrew is the oldest living human in recorded history. For it is by this proclamation, I validate his marriage to Portia Charney, and acknowledge his humanity.
Except he had left the world before hearing it, although Portia said that he never really needed to hear it either.
Sigh, such is a robot who tried to make sense of his purpose in life and went through lots and gave up immortality for the namesake of love.
The last thing I want to remember though is sometimes too much knowledge can indeed be detrimental to oneself. Because due to his vast readings, he started having ideas on what most people has been fighting for – Independence. In his words “One has studied your history. Terrible wars have been fought where millions have died for one idea, freedom. And it seems that something that means so much to so many people would be worth having.”
生命诚可贵，爱情价更高。若为自由故，两者皆可抛。
Hmm but seriously, is independence that important? Somehow the show goes to prove that it isn't. Hmm..
I got my hope and managed to catch Eat Pray Love in the inflight entertainment. And it was interesting to see what I had conjured in my mind when I read the book, to be presented in the film. Especially when I saw the picture the Balinese man gave the female protagonist. And I went back to find the drawing I drew that time.
I don’t remember certain scenes though. For e.g. the part when female protagonist had been asked if she’s a lesbian just because she chose to travel around the world and not get married and start a family. But if a guy does that, people will just say he has to sown his wild oats before he can settle down. Such discrimination!
Because it is so true that God dwells within me, as me. God, who can comes in all shapes and sizes, will elicit the same feelings and respect from us regardless. And thus there is no such thing as your God is more powerful than my God.
Unfortunately the movie dwells mainly the Love part I feel. The only part I did not comment much when I read the book. And weirdly the part that I’m intrigued lately especially after cL made me watch Channel U feature Film : Love in A Cab 等一等爱情. (I had actually wrote a blog on it but I lost it just as I was about to publish it.. the word document crashed and I could not retrieve it back no matter what.. so I felt it may be destined not to write about it.. I will see my mood and time if I wish to replicate it below this post).
“The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving.”
And likewise I like to challenge myself to do impossible things.. like leaving.
“You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That’s the only thing you should be trying to control.”
Haha this is funny, so if I hate selecting clothes, I probably hate selecting thoughts. And if I have a habit to keep selecting the same clothes, then I probably have the same habit to keep selecting the same thoughts?
“Not too much God, not too much selfishness”. This is the equilibrium you wish to attain in life. But does it always have to be balanced? Because sometimes “To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.” Aww this is the exact paradox that I like to dab with. Haha. Of course I can make life simpler for myself too.. which I do at times.. I will do what the female protagonist does in Love in a Cab haha (a cue to write a bit about the Love in a Cab I guess)
一个是时针，一个是分针。
Thus they are forever walking in different paces, meeting only occasionally. So who should wait for who? And what if both stopped to wait, would they ever meet again then?
我在雨中等你，在太阳下等你，等了又等，一等再等．最后我忘了我在等什么？可能只是一个结果。
And what are they waiting for?
2000年，克勤和祖儿因为麦当劳的Hello Kitty结下了缘分。2002年的世界杯，开了两人的玩笑，让两人的误会加深。2004年，Nicoll Highway倒塌事件让两人的关系改进。(I still remember that year, I tend to take bus 10 home frequently. And I wondered what if the bus 10 had been on the road at that point of time?)
And so the female protagonist did something to make things simpler. She asked him for a date. For 10 years, they had never been on a date. But the male protagonist said that is because for the past 10 years, history showed that they were never meant to be.
张小娴说：
在错的时间遇上对的人，是一种无奈；
在对的时间遇上错的人，是一声叹息；
在对的时间遇上对的人，是一生幸福。
Thus they had been meeting at the wrong timing. When he had his first love stolen, she had stolen the first love gift – A pair of Hello Kitty in spacesuit (haha it is also the only pair in my display cabinet). When she tested him with bringing medicine for her, he had arrived too late (he said next time he will called a cab and not wait for cab) and her boyfriend had proposed. When she was single, he had another girl by his side already. In fact I had a feeling after breaking up with that boyfriend; she does not seem to have dated ever again. Was she waiting for him then? But he was going to get married (sigh how did the feelings get transferred? I wish to know.). In Eat, Pray and Love, I remembered vividly the ex-husband telling the female protagonist that when he said his marriage vows till death, he meant it. So my BIG question is how did this male protagonist went through the marriage process and made such an eternal vow? These days, do these young people take love seriously at all? Or am I the only fool believing that love is pure in its truest essence. (Ok I exaggerated; I am surrounded by people who believe in love in its purest form too, thankfully.)
Of course later on it showed that he never got married. But he chose to wait for her to sms him on xmas eve. That is so… passive… And so since they are both still single, even I do not understand why the wait? (If I’m the female protagonist, I probably murder him already). And why he still insist it was never meant to be? And probably like the female protagonist, I will play the fate game too haha. But eh seeing if the next cab rego is an even number, of which it is 1402 and she decided let’s have a date on 14th Feb then. I do agree she is a tad too reckless haha (not that I’m not reckless when I’m pushed to my extremes). And since she chose the date, I think fate really did play a big joke on them. Because all these years, he had been drawing their love story. And had compiled them in pristine condition in a black folder. And as she flipped through the love story, he told her someone from Taiwan had taken a liking to his artwork and he has decided to fly to Taiwan on 14th Feb. And he may never come back. Awww…
I still remember he was saying he drew for her and found his calling. But in the end he had to leave her to accomplish his calling. And obviously nobody will stop someone in his life mission. That is too selfish.
So she did something even more selfish than that, she chose to call quits on the Waiting Game and leave before him haha.
你送我，好过我送你。
Smart move! And with that simplify everything. Because now they only left less than a few hours before she will bid him adieu. And if he has anything to say, he should say it now. BUT (and it seriously came as no surprise to me having seen how wishy-washy he is) he chose to keep his silence. And so she returned the first love gift and decided to leave him...ever and ever again.. Haha I would have like this ending in some wicked sense because well he had to pay his consequences for keeping quiet even at the very last moments and being berated by the cab driver. Seriously she had been too lenient to turn back just because he was chasing the cab for a SHORT distance. But well this is a LOVE story and HAPPY endings are expected because.. right from the beginning the story had already unfolded...
爱情像的德士，有时你等它，有时它等你，只要你愿意，一定会等到的。
Oh and I still want to murder him for another reason. The female protagonist had said she is willing to go Taiwan (I agree is the best option too as you should not give up your calling and LDR is really tiring and mentally challenging) with him but he said must see her performance after the date. BISH!
Back to Eat Pray Love…
“This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something.”
"The Physics of the Quest." A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this: If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you.
Actually when I first read the book, it was about the same time I was heading to Italy too. Then I wondered when I will be in India for the 2nd part. However when I was watching the movie and seeing the Indian roadside scenes, somehow I recalled about Manila, how I accidentally ventured into the slums which later on someone told me I should not have gone there. I had witnessed the poor conditions and indeed had been afraid at that time (kept reminding myself not to take photo because that would betray that I am a foreigner). And I ‘prayed’ constantly in Manila, not on purpose. I visited their EDSA Shrine and again spent the whole morning asking Jesus what is my next path. Because I had been rejected by VSO then and was totally lost in my bearings. The next day I stumbled into Mother Teresa’s exhibition while in Manila Cathedral and was asking her for enlightenment. So now I’m wondering, when I am going Bali to be taught by a guru on the balance of life? Haha! (Oh and I finally published the 2 long over due posts haha)
p/s: cL, my friend mentioned about Sumiko Tan's different travelling sentiments with her husband which amused me. What's your take on it? Actually while watching Love in a Cab, I did wonder if Sumiko Tan had waited like the female protagonist did? And do you believe that in real life, such a story will happen? Ok I must faster finalize my HK itinerary. Drop u a message when I'm back.
A crappy movie! That was what my bro warned me. And told me not to watch. But how can I resist it? Probably the only English sitcom that I follow so faithfully. I cannot remember another English sitcom (nope, never watched Friends, nor Desperate Housewives, or Gossip Gals...) that I bother to invest my time on. Though believe me, CSI is always on my to-watch list but I still have not (and probably will not) allocate time for it.
And I do admit I did not like the fashion sense. I still cannot accept Carrie's purple fluffy skirt when meeting Aidan. Nor the part on latest spring collection by the Abu Dhabi lovely ladies though it is fascinating to really find out what these ladies really wore beneath their black robe. You know, while thinking about them, I suddenly thought of the bird world. I had recently asked a seasoned bird watcher why all the birds are named after the male birds and not the female. And he replied because if they were named after females, it will become boring flycatcher (and not pipe flycatcher), boring laughing thrush (and not Chestnut capped laughing thrush or Chestnut crowned laughing thrush) and etc. Females, I guess are supposedly always the boring species and thus all the ladies in Abu Dhabi have to be in black from head to toe.
The classic scene would be how these ladies eat their fries. And seriously I wonder how long it would take them to finish a meal if they have to keep lifting their veil slightly for each mouthful.
I don't know what attracted me to SATC. Was it the New York dreams? The freedom. The free flow of ideals and dreams. What exactly was the word for NY? Achieve. Reminds me of my Alma mata's motto - Aim and Achieve. And for these past years, I have indeed been trying to aim myself towards where my heart desires.. but still has not achieved it. Of course I know the journey matters and time is probably not ripe yet.
I might never have a chance to stay in NYC not that I want to either. NYC is like any typical city to me now.. like Mel.. like SG. I think the freedom I'm seeing from these SATC gals, I probably can indulge in them in Mel now, at least a certain percentage. I know I'm still sheltered especially as my accommodation is paid and it includes a weekly cleaning thus I can still be lazy and not clean up too much. But ya, a month here and I realised I wielded quite a lot of freedom suddenly. And I need to know, how much more can I wield without being embroiled in guilty games?
I chanced upon this movie recommendation from Jane's Racing the Sahara Blog. And I must say thanks for the recommendation because I love the quotes I got there... picked a few (a lot I would say) from Wiki and etc:
Life has three rules: Paradox, Humor, and Change.
- Paradox: Life is a mystery; don't waste your time trying to figure it out.
- Humor: Keep a sense of humor, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure
- Change: Know that nothing ever stays the same.
#Someone once told me I should stop asking too much questions and accept life as what it was. But it is a bad habit that I could not shake... Why not do a compromise where I will appreciate the current moment and yet question it further? Hmm but that means you will lose focus...
There is never nothing going on. There are no ordinary moments.
##Everything happens for a reason. My trip tomorrow also happens for a reason. Whatever is the reason, I will get my answer tomorrow. But even if I don't get my answer, I have decided to just appreciate everything that has happened to me. I remember before my Italy trip, I thought everything would comes apparent to me. But I realised, that in life, nothing is ever apparent.
When you feel fear. Use the sword, take it up here and cut the mind to ribbons, slash through all those regrets and fears, anything else that lives in past or the future.
##Actually I prefer the non-violent way.. accept that fear is part and parcel of your life but do not be paralyzed by it.
There's no greater purpose than service to others.
##Hmm...
Socrates: Everyone wants to tell you what to do and what's good for you. They don't want you to find your own answers, they want you to believe theirs.
Dan Millman: Let me guess, and you want me to believe yours.
Socrates: No, I want you to stop gathering information from the outside and start gathering it from the inside.
##Look into your heart...
People are not their thoughts, they think they are, and it brings them all kinds of sadness
##No wonder people tends to be more sad than happy...
Everything has a purpose, even this, and it's up to you to find it.
##Even if you are facing an obstacle, met an accident. These are tribulations which are meant to strengthen you.
The ones who are hardest to love are usually the ones who need it the most.
##Haha this was copied for CL's reading..
Knowledge is knowing, Wisdom is doing.
##And that is why actions speak louder than words
Death isn't sad. The sad thing is: most people don't live at all.
##Yupz..
It is the journey that gives us happiness, not the destination.
##Destination may not always let me find what I am originally looking for due to changes happening when you embark the journey...
If you don't get what you want, you suffer. And even when you get exactly what you want, you still suffer because you can't hold on to it forever.
##I so agree with this statement. I suffer whether I have it or not. So what is the remedy?
There is no better, you will never be better. Same way you'll never be less than anybody else.
#Same way indeed! Oh and xixiong was saying SG are haughty creatures especially in developing countries.. So sad because seriously, I don't think we are better than these people at all.. At least they lived their lives simply and happily, unlike us...
Habit is the problem. All you need to do is be conscious about your choices and be responsible for your actions.
#Habit is the best excuses I have..
A warrior does what he loves.
##You must do what your heart desires...
The last part was most memorable as it was about the friend who had wanted to learn from Dan but ended up sounding just as lost as what the old Dan was. Thinking everything is about the medal, the glory, the ego. And thus you suffer when you don't get it, and suffer when you do get it because these are transient stuff that will leave you in seconds. And all that is left behind is some gaping hole that you must fill up with.. perhaps more medals? And so I must insist never to commit the folly of beating your personal best in any events but to appreciate the journey instead (unless the route is really boring?)
Thinking of reading the book and see if I can get any pointers from it. But gosh my to-read list is getting longer. Maybe this trip, I can get some readings done? Or some bloggins? On my mobile though as I still do not have a lappie haha.
Saving my results for further analysis next time..
32/5
5: Freedom and Discipline
3: Expression and Sensitivity
2: Cooperation and Balance
Those on the 32/5 or 23/5 life path are here to work through issues related to independence, emotional honesty, and cooperation, finally experiencing freedom through discipline and depth of experience.
Since our life path presents hurdles to overcome, both 32/5s and 23/5s confront internal challenges, tendencies, and conflicts in areas of dependence and independence, responsibility, and honest expression of emotion. Both 32/5s and 23/5s are here to experience true freedom. The phrase true freedom implies the idea of false freedoms — for example, self-indulgence, irresponsibility, or license — when 32/5s or 23/5s insist on doing whatever they want to do, whenever they want to do it. Only those 32/5s and 23/5s who have not yet matured into a more positive expression of 5 strive for such “freedom.” The freedom sought by most 32/5s and 23/5s manifests as a drive to experience and know; this freedom entails a sense of mobility in different arenas of life — physical, mental, emotional, social, sexual, and financial. Those working 32/5 or 23/5 seek to explore opportunities and find adventure where they can, whether in life, in books, or at the movies.
Sunshine in your sky
See the birds fly so high
I know I can't fly
But I still want to try
Try try try...
- 痞子英雄
钱币有正面与反面
但现实生活
并不是黑白分明
- 痞子英雄
Has been watching 痞子英雄 lately and while the song sounded stupid and is not a true song, I can't help wishing to try to fly too.
These days, I feel there is too much grey areas and I really don't know what I should do in life. I had a long chat with my boss and while I no longer remember what we talk about.. I remember him doing an ARK. Every time he see this old man with walking difficulty making his way to the coffee shop or back home, he will extend a helping hand. And each time he came back (after a real long time), he will be sweating profusely and his back will ache. But he will not stop helping because he was brought up since young (from a Buddhist school), to always extend a helping hand when possible. He may not have studied much but he certainly has put whatever he studied in good use.
Seeing him make me more resolute in taking the road less travelled.
Doc today told me about a pretty gal that doc is smitten by in 痞子英雄. The forensic lady... 张钧甯. Being the blur me I did not realise till episode 4, when the style was undeniably similar, that she is the 关欣 that I loved in 白色巨塔.
My most favourite quote from her then:
真正的勇气是用来追求那种简单的幸福。。。
当我们在这做我们想做的事，天堂就是我们一伸手就碰到的地方。
如果你要幸福，你要坚定地伸出手，去做你想做的事，去爱你身边最爱的人。
不要等，因为心福从来没有离开过，只是你有没有看见。
- 关欣留给苏怡华的信
Re-extracted from here
Anyway forensic investigator.. a cool job I would say especially since I was actually searching about it lately. Studies once again came into my mind after all these disappointments. But were these really what I wanted in the first place? Wait... GA just kept asking me to wait as long as I am clear what I want. I am clear. I just don't know how to achieve it.
The Power behind the force; what do I need to nurture my process and turn my dreams into reality.
The High Priestess
Briefly:Mystical studies may also appeal to you at this time, and you could take up the study of subjects such as astrology, tarot or other esoteric knowledge. Incredible gifts await for you. All you have to do is acknowledge that within lies all knowledge. This is a card of wisdom and intelligence.
Full Meaning: This powerful major arcana has incredible gifts for you. All you have to do is acknowledge that within lies all knowledge. This is a card of wisdom and intelligence. It is also an indication of mystical effects and understanding.
This woman can achieve anything she wants. She is studious and persevering. She is enchanting, deep, mysterious and has a unique talent for understanding people and their motives. She is psychic and gifted in many areas of natural law. She knows when to make decisions, when to act and set plans in motion and how to be in complete control of her own destiny. She is a leader, not a follower. She has charm, grace and poise. She is gifted with extra-ordinary understanding, compassion and has humanitarian instincts. She has high ideals and aspires to achieve her planned goals. She is an excellent communicator and listener. She knows when to be quiet. She understands the correct timing on when to plant seeds that will ultimately prosper. She is particularly cool, calm and collected. She is logical and rational and fair. She has a strong sense of justice. The initials B and J may be, or prove to be important in your life. These can represent the initials of people, places and businesses. They are signposts to people and places which will become of profound significance to you.
You could be considering doing some type of studies when you draw this card. Other than that, a teacher, possibly female, may come into your life and have an enormous impact on you. She could teach you valuable lessons that you need to learn.
Should you be considering becoming a teacher yourself, this would be a good indicator that you are on the right track and will achieve success in your chosen field.
Mystical studies may also appeal to you at this time, and you could take up the study of subjects such as astrology, tarot or other esoteric knowledge.
Ethereal Essence
Essence of the force; what choices do I need to make in order to begin this journey.
Page of Swords
Briefly:Time to go out there and make your indelible mark on the world in your own unique way.
Full Meaning: This guy is ready for action and adventure. He is capable of acting quickly and confidently. Yet he is known to be somewhat aloof at times and may seem too young to tackle the tasks at hand. He is brave and sometimes foolishly confident. He learns well though by his mistakes, because he usually makes them while he is young.
He is often very good looking, crystal clear blue eyes, though sometimes has pure black eyes. His skin is smooth and clean shaven. He has a boyish look to his face, even when in his late twenties or early thirties. He has innocent charm and can make the girls swoon around him, yet hardly noticing that he has this affect on them. He has the wanderlust in him and will want to travel at a young age. He can hardly wait to get out there in the world and explore what life has to offer.
If this card is the querent's card, it could be signalling the time to go out there and make your indelible mark on the world in your own unique way with no apology to anyone.
If this card is not you, you could encounter someone like him who briefly walks through your life. Cherish this while it lasts, for it may or may not last very long. He wants to be on the move and no amount of clinging will keep him from getting out the door. Let him go and he will return when he is ready.
Emotion
Feelings and senses associated with the process. What will assist and guide me during this time.
Seven of Pentacles
Briefly:A bonus or raise is in the near future.
Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a fit young man leaning on a rake. He is in a garden overflowing with healthy foliage, and in the background are mountains. He is obviously a hard working man going about his business, yet with an eye to the future. There are seven coins on the card depicting that he will gain financially from his efforts. There could also be a bonus in the near future for him, as most of the coins are in front of him. If this card represents yourself, you could be about to start a new job or earn an extra bonus in your pay packet. Or perhaps someone may actually assist you by guiding you towards a lucrative financial investment. You may also distance yourself from where you now live to earn a new living.
Reflection
Vision and logic of the creative process. What lessons and guides should I listen for.
Five of Wands
Briefly:A symbol of some conflict that is currently going on around you or is about to take place.
Full Meaning: Often this is a symbol of some conflict that is currently going on around you or is about to take place. However for some it can be a gathering of people, united together to achieve a common goal. This could be akin to builders erecting a house, or even a political party meeting to seek cohesion in their direction. More than likely though a lot of activity takes place and you can see that there are basically many hands on deck. The issue may be that there is some expertise and effort needed to get everyone thinking on the same level, rather than a divided group. If you wish to create a more harmonious state amongst a group of people who are not seeing eye to eye, try to find a common denominator and work on that element of these people.
Creation
Completion, the density or finished manifestation. The outcome based on the current path.
The Hanged Man
Briefly:There is some type of time lapse going on around you. Things have not quite reached fruition and you have to take a wait and see attitude.
Full Meaning: When you draw this card you are being advised that there is some type of time lapse going on around you. Things have not quite reached fruition and you have to take a wait and see attitude. There may be some delay to your plans and it is best to be patient and bide your time. Someone may seem unbalanced around you and creating a difficult though not unsolvable problem. Trust your judgement and make allowances for this for the time being. Time is the great healer of most dilemmas so be the keeper of your own counsel and it will serve you well. Someone may also be having difficulty with their leg and unable to walk or get around as they usually do. They may need a walking stick or crutches, just temporarily. Give a wide berth to anyone who is not in the best of health either physically, mentally or emotionally. If you have to make an important decision around now, take your time to weigh all the facts and be sure that it is the best choice possible.
Single Card Tarot
Nine of Cups
Briefly: Whatever your true heart desires will come to you with relative ease.
Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a content and happy man wearing colorful clothing and a large hat with a feather in it. Behind him are the nine cups and this is often called the wish card. Whatever your true heart desires will come to you with relative ease. There is a sense of satisfaction and happiness with one's place in life. Often material gains are unfolding towards you and you will enjoy general good health and a more safe and secure lifestyle. Many celebrations and social gatherings are likely to occur in the near future and you may also attend some special dress up type parties such as fancy dress parties.
Bflygal's comments: The Princess and the Frog says that while you know what you want, you must also know what you need. When Tiana turned into a frog with Prince Naveen, they both knew they wanted to turn back human form. They both knew what they want, but never what they need - a princess for Prince Naveen to kiss. The princess is none other than Tiana, an ordinary lady who work hard and believe that dreams come true only through hard work and thus spend no free time to play, a lady who turn into a princess once Prince Naveen marry her. I'm a sucker for faerie tales, and happy ending. And I really respect Tiana.. and wish I can realise my dream like how resolved she is to realise her wish, even though there are times she really felt despondent. I don't need fancy dress parties, I don't need branded goods, I just want what my heart truly desires.
I wish I may, I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight.
Is that why we all like to sing Twinkle Twinkle little star, is the little star Evangeline, the evening star whom we all wish upon?
Anyway the show is very clichéd. And the angel does not talk haha.. but I think it is better she doesn't talk too. Afterall having finished Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, I am fully convinced that God only speaks through your heart and so if God has no voice, I do not expect my GA to have a voice too. But sometimes I wish I can have a proper conversation with my GA.. like now... then I will ask what is GA's favourite drink to lure GA here hahahah... kidding!
Anyway today's quote is interesting:
ANGELS.--If you woo the company of the angels in your waking hours, they will be sure to come to you in your sleep.--G.D. PRENTICE.
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