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Saturday, January 31, 2009

Definitely, Maybe

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What's the boy word for 'slut'?

The little girl asked her dad. She cannot believed that her dad is such a slut... and yet she still loved him all the same.

And what broke my heart, and finally made me cry is when the little girl could not figured out what the happy ending is..

How does it have a happy ending? You and my mom, whoever she is, you're getting divorced! What's the happy in that?

Ok I admit, I was trying to cry... and that movie happened to caught my attention even though I watched it before already. Sometimes, I can be quite duh in re-watching movies. Anyway to pick up from where I left, the happy ending is that the parents had the little girl, Maya. (Another tear drop just escaped.)

Of course nothing beats the dedication on Charlotte Brontë's Jane Eyre.

To my darling daughter April

"The human heart has hidden treasures
In secret kept, in silence sealed.
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures
Whose charms were broken if revealed"

From your loving Father

I like that story too though I must admit I probably read the children version (i.e. a shortened else comic version)

Oh and I learn something more about penguins through this movie...

Maya Hayes: I love penguins.
Emily: Me, too.
Will Hayes: Me, three.
Maya Hayes: Did you know that penguins mate for life? Although, Mr. Monell told us that sometimes the husband and wife penguins get separated because of their migraine patterns.
Will Hayes, Emily: Migratory.
Maya Hayes: Well, sometimes they're apart for years, but they almost always find each other. Do you know what the husband and wife penguins do after they find each other after all that time? Throw back their heads, flap their flippers, and sing as loud as they can!
[imitating a penguin]
Maya Hayes: Wah wah wah!
(and then the scene shows a pair of penguins doing the exact flapping.... aww sweet!)
Source: IMDB

That and the fact that if I ever get to New York - USA, I would like to visit the Brooklyn Bridge after what the little girl had mentioned...

Did you know that 35 people try to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge each year, most because of broken hearts?

Interesting place to be…
As for my current mood… upset over the news I read this morning, over the training progress, over… hmm….

Got somethings to add...
One, I finally got a chance to dine in Equinox.. I still remembered that I took the lift up many years ago just to have a glimpse... and in 2007 I did the vertical marathon because of a phrase in My Girl
逃到很远的地方前
先逃到很高的地方
Dangz, did the sign just repeated itself? Seen the day view twice, and seen the night view twice (Happen to go to one of the bar last month).. Last night one can see the Chingay platform haha. Too high to catch the Chingay procession though one can see the road block "p (colleague pointed it to me while we were in a bar on the 72nd storey?? Pretty high I would say, close to the helipad that I reached the previous year ago)

Two, talking about the sign, this video seems interesting enough although a bit monotonous initially.

Three, at first I was bothered about something but while reading a past entry, I decided ... too bad on those affected but I did not want to be dishonest. To reiterate the 4th point of Eightfold path

4. Right action – sometimes we do the right thing to different degrees, depending on how much of our own comfort we’re willing to sacrifice
a. Do not speak dishonestly
b. Do not take what isn’t given to or meant for you
c. Do not kill other living things or ask that they be killed for you
d. Do not engage in sexual activity that might harm you or others
e. Do not become intoxicated to the point where you can’t control your speech or actions

But when I refused to take an extra packet, I denied the rest a chance to lie. Was it my fault? When you prevent one from being too greedy, are you in right or wrong? Is it your position to deny them a chance to sin? Is it even considered a sin?

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

The Alchemist

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Source: Wiki


Can you imagine that I wrote the draft many months ago (together with the introduction which you can read from here)? Definitely need to complete this post this round.

I finished this book very long time ago. And I had even bought this book for a friend though now I think over it, he doesn’t really need it. He walked the finance path, while I chose the personal learning path. (Hmm as of date, I’m not sure. I do hope the best for him though.)

The idea for this story is taken from a short prose-poem by Oscar Wilde called 'The Disciple'.

When Narcissus died the pool of his pleasure changed from a cup of sweet waters into a cup of salt tears, and the Oreads came weeping through the woodland that they might sing to the pool and give it comfort.

And when they saw that the pool had changed from a cup of sweet waters into a cup of salt tears, they loosened the green tresses of their hair and cried to the pool and said, 'We do not wonder that you should mourn in this manner for Narcissus, so beautiful was he.'
'But was Narcissus beautiful?' said the pool.

'Who should know that better than you?' answered the Oreads. 'Us did he ever pass by, but you he sought for, and would lie on your banks and look down at you, and in the mirror of your waters he would mirror his own beauty.'

And the pool answered, 'But I loved Narcissus because, as he lay on my banks and looked down at me, in the mirror of his eyes I saw ever my own beauty mirrored.'

Then the story goes on to talk about...

Personal Legend:
It’s what you have always wanted to accomplish. Everyone, when they are young, knows what their Personal Legend is. At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realise their Personal Legend.

Mysterious force:
It’s a force that appears to be negative, but actually shows you how to realise your Personal Legend. It prepares your spirit and your will, because there is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, its’ because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It’s your mission on earth. The Soul of the World is nourished by people’s happiness. And also by unhappiness, envy, and jealousy. To realize one’s destiny is a person’s only real obligation. All things are one.

People learn, early in lives, what is their reason for being. Maybe that’s why they give up on it so early too. But that’s the way it is.

Treasure is uncovered by the force of flowing water, and it is buried by the same currents. If you want to learn about your own treasure, you will have to give me one-tenth of your flock.
What about one-tenth of my treasure?
If you start out by promising what you don’t even have yet, you’ll lose your desire to work toward getting it.

The boy felt jealous of the freedom of the wind, and saw that he could have the same freedom. There was nothing to hold him back except himself.

Principle of favourability. When you play cards the first time, you are almost sure to win. Beginner’s luck. Because there is a force that wants you to realize your Personal Legend; it whets your appetite with a taste of success.

I am guessing at the future. The future belongs to God, and it is only he who reveals it, under extraordinary circumstances. How do I guess at the future? Based on the omens of the present. The secret is here in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better. Forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings, confident that God loves his children. Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity.
God rarely reveals the future. When he does so, it is for only one reason: it’s a future that was written so as to be altered.

IT’s not what enters men’s mouths that’s evil. It’s what comes out of their mouths that is.

Wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure. You’ve got to find the treasure, so that everything you have learned along the way can make sense.

You must understand that love never keeps a man from pursuing his Personal Legend. If he abandons that pursuit, it’s because it wasn’t true love… the love that speaks the Language of the World.

Don’t think about what you’ve left behind. Everything is written in the Soul of the World, and there it will stay forever.

His heart told him that it was happy. Even though I complain sometimes, it’s because I’m the heart of a person and people’s hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren’t, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly.

The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because everything second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.

Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits him. We, people’s hearts seldom say much about those treasures, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We speak of them only to children. Later, we simply let life proceed, in its own direction, toward its own fate. But, unfortunately, very few follow the path laid out for them – the path to their Personal Legends, and to happiness. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place. So, we, their hearts, speak more and more softly. We never stop speaking out, but we begin to hope that our words won’t be heard: we don’t want people to suffer because they don’t follow their hearts.

Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that has learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon’.

Every search begins with beginner’s luck. And every search ends with the victor’s being severely tested.

It said that the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn.

Does a man’s heart always help him? Mostly just the hearts of those who are trying to realize their Personal Legends. But they do help children, drunkards and the elderly too.
Doest that mean that I’ll never run into danger?
It means only that the heart does what it can.

This is why alchemy exists, so that everyone will search for his treasure, find it, and then want to be better than he was in his former life. Lead will play its role until the world has no further need for lead; and then lead will have to turn itself into gold. That’s what alchemists do. They show that, when we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.

Love is the force that transforms and improves the Soul of the World. When I first reached through to it, I thought the Soul of the World was perfect. But later, I could see that it was like other aspects of creation, and had its own passions and wars. It is we who nourish the Soul of the World, and the world we live in will be either better or worse, depending on whether we become better or worse. And that’s where the power of love comes in. because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.

Life might be listening, and give you less the next time.

Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.

Few alchemists have succeeded in turning lead into gold. They were looking only for goal. They were seeking the treasure of their Personal Legend, without wanting actually to live out the Personal Legend.

Gospel of Luke (Chapter 7): My Lord I am not worthy that you should come under my roof…”
No matter what he does, every person on earth plays a central role in the history of the world. And normally he doesn’t know it.

When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed.

Monday, January 26, 2009

祝大家牛转乾坤迎新年

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Did not send out this Chinese New Year greetings in time as work lappie got into major problem that I ended up reformatting .. and trying to download an installer not realising that I already had it in hand (wasted a day arghh).. and almost wanted to go back office during PH (luckily I didn't as there is no M$ software in office either)... All in all, I can only say, actually it is a good thing that the work lappie crash because the M$ software has a 3 months limit to download the "Microsoft Office system backup discs for medialess license kits" (and to tell you the truth, I'm actually very grateful they added the download option because the forums only mention ship-to cd which will probably take me 1 month to get it?). And I learnt now that Medialess License Kit Office is an OEM version, totally different from Trial version and require the backup to accept the Product key. I'm still thinking how to do an image so that next time I can just restore image and saves me more time (had wanted to do some work during PH but work lappie "ba-gong"). Oh another tip I learnt, was to partition my hdd which I did the first day I got work lappie. At least my data was intact.. phew!


Hmm at the same time I shall post out the Vday greeting because I hope I do not have any time to muse anymore haha... I need to catch up on my work.. and my training...

Acknowledgement:
Both images were taken from Facebook - Friendstock which is currently so buggy that I do not feel like posting the hyperlink. In fact I got half a mind to stop playing that game already. Initially started to understand how "stock" market works in a simplified version. Everybody came into the game anonymous in some sense. How do one attract investor? How do one justify his stock is worth this value. In the end, there were a few rules to follow e.g. you should boost yourself to up your value, you should say thanks to all who help you along. Then there are times you get sold and you wonder why the investor did not wait? And when you got sold at loss even which demoralise you and the stock. And then there were raiders who can up your sales quickly to get fast cash. Yes, I suddenly realise that Friendstock is just as scary as real life stock market especially when the stocks start plummenting. Hmm...

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Definition of Woman

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Source: Ms Sumiko Tan's Feeling Half A Woman

My friend had asked me to read this article. But before I comment, I just wanted to post a paragraph on Bring vs Take (mentioned by another article of hers years ago which came out in the google search while I was looking for this)

Bring means to bear HERE or move TOWARD the speaker.
1. I will bring a salad home to eat.
2. Will you bring the paperwork with you tomorrow for our meeting?
3. I brought leftovers for lunch today.

Take means to bear THERE or to take AWAY from the speaker
1. I will take a salad to the picnic.
2. Please take your plate to the dishwasher.
3. You can take my coat with you to keep warm.

Ok back to main topic:
Hmm actually the only comment I have is that the commentor is a bit harsh on her. I was trying to find out if Ms Sumiko Tan did get married or not, through this article I can safely guess the answer. Then I'm thinking if she wants to be married or not? I don't know. Not because I don't know, but because woman don't know what they want sometimes. Is not their fault.. is it? Sometimes human don't even know what they want right? Hmm not making much sense and logic.

But, ah well, these feelings come but mostly these feelings go. If this is meant to be the script of my life, then why bother trying to rewrite it?
- Ms Sumiko Tan's "Feeling Half A Woman"

I supposed she said it best with this line. I'm not saying nothing is for eternal but even feelings will increase and decrease, that's where the changes are seen. Only change is constant... thus every seconds, your wants and needs differ. What Ms Sumiko Tan wants, at the end of the day, is for herself to be happy. What I want at the end of the day, is for my wish to come true (not divulging).

Still got more to say but.. but... I think I rest my case with this last line, Mother Teresa is a woman to me. Makes sense?

p/s: Anthony Robbins once mentioned about Mother Teresa in his talk (click here) which is about what you link pain and what you link pleasure shapes your destiny. Interesting thought.

Friday, January 23, 2009

I Believe You - Low Kay Hwa

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The trailer for Low Kay Hwa's "I Believe You" (which I like the music). And in it lies a Da Vinci Code excerpt:
I’m sorrie if I say anything wrong… u will still come for the appointment, won’t u? Let me fetch you on that
day, okie? Only you can help yourself. come on, reply a yes…Vent your thoughts to others please… it’s the
only way out. Ease your illusions! let me help…You’ve gonna come for it! Only you… yourself can help
yourself… Understanding yourself is most important…

This secret message was not decoded even at the end of the story. Actually it is quite an obvious ("duh") message.. but then, I'm an "incurable romantics" (borrowing a term from Ms Sumiko Tan's "Darling, I don't love you anymore) so I just had to decode it. And conclude that this is an extremely clichéd story with predictable storyline. Nevertheless, I'm not going to divulge any speck of the story.

I'm just thinking about feelings. How two teenagers could feel so strongly for each other? How could the author define love so simply as
It’s either you love, or you don’t. You can try everything, almost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love, or you don’t.”


Only Love
- Trademark

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

If love is simple, then what is complicated? Haha, actually I know the answer, human. It has to be human who define love as wondrous miracle one moment, and absolutely disastrous the next. It has to be human who decided that love continues on as marriage or love ceases to exist. So pray tell me that must love only goes either of these 2 ways or can it stay still forever? And if it should stay still forever, would it be considered boring or heart warming that love could lasts? And if it cannot remain at status quo and there is no inclination of marriage, then should love just end even though there is still love?

I guess everybody answers to such questions differently, thus the outcome will differ too. Of course the scary part is when the 2 involved have different answers. Even Ms Sumiko Tan’s article could not come up with a conclusion other than the fact that
Still, to have loved and lost - lost in the sense of losing that love you once held so dear in your heart, and lost as in losing your loved one to someone or something else - must surely be better than to have never loved at all.
- Ms Sumiko Tan's "Darling, I don't love you anymore


A point much emphasised by the movie “Leap of Love”. A point I have been thinking if I should try “actively” matchmaking/brainwash my friend though I cannot justify why I want to put her through the hurt should it be lost and I have no confidence if love lasts. I can only say, it is fated, it is life. (An afterthought from )

Anyway the only thing I concluded after much processing of the brain is, if there is hurt, then love might have exists. And if there is no hurt, it does not mean love did not exists. Most importantly, if it is time for you to love ((whether it is the right or wrong person, appropriate or inappropriate time), you can choose to accept or avoid but you cannot deny the inexistence of the feelings. Thus I don’t think I need to be a brainwasher haha. (Admit it, I’m lazy!)

At the end of the day, I can only acknowledge that Life is Wonderful =D

Life is Wonderful
- Jason Mraz


It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storey
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes some tears to make it rust
It takes the rust to HAVE it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to MAKE a mountain

Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Why would you like a jerk?

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The trailer begins...
Narrator:
A girl will never forget the first boy she ever liked.

Little girl: "Why did you do that?"
Little boy: "Because you smell like dog poo!"

And what did the mummy replied to this tear-streaked girl?
"Honey, do you know why that little boy did those things? Because he likes you."

That's the beginning of our problem. We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk, that means he likes you.

Bflygal's comment:
First I'm going to find the book "He's Just Not That Into You" by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo
Then I'm going to catch the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" in Feb 2009?
And then I'm gonna wake up and stop dispensing those crappy excuses e.g.
"Maybe He Doesn't Want to Ruin the Friendship",
"Maybe He's Intimidated by Me",
"Maybe He Wants to Take It Slow",
"Maybe He Forgot to Remember Me" blah blah blah...

Just realise sometimes girls think too much for their own good, with the wrong focus... why not I don't want to ruin the friendship? I want to take it slow? haha... Anyway I'm in a good mood as I finally cleaned up something that I should have cleaned up last year...

Monday, January 19, 2009

算命

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Bone Density

称骨算命:
为人心性最聪明,作事轩昂近贵人;
衣禄一生天注定,不须劳碌是丰亨。

说明:
此命为人性燥刚强,平生不受亏,多技多能,祖业冰碳,骨肉风云,兄弟画饼充饥,六亲望梅止渴,劳心见早,发福见迟,独立成家,能聚财超过三十开外,方得意开怀。中限之命能进四方之财,出外逢贵人助力,艺术精善经营,方能兴旺,上业迟有一病相侵至末限,方得享福,妻宫匹配,龙虎马牛可配,二子送老,寿元八十岁。

基本性格:
有远大的抱负,职业信念很强,务实精神会帮助他在工作和学习上不断进取。天生具有经商的才能。严肃认真,有很强的责任感和义务感,但性格上有些趋于忧郁。他喜欢勤俭节约,办事有条理,为了改善经济状况肯付出代价。
他的动力:责任感。

Source: http://www.name999.com/

處 女 座
出生日期︰
9月12日﹝木星‧懸吊者﹞
代表人物:
傑西歐文斯(奧運短跑金牌)
特點︰
智慧高,踏實,默默努力工作;善於組織、管理事物,思路清晰,做事有條不紊;誠實、客觀,腳踏實地。優點是具有很好的管理和溝通能力,非常機智和守信用。缺點是個性比較內向和拘謹;工作狂,不注意自已健康。

Source: http://www.ira.org.tw/adventure/birthday/act.htm

Bflygal's comments:
I had to rewrite this post as I was quite incoherent that night. Why I'm using my feng shui results to comment is because I'm lazy to write 2 posts haha. Besides I'm quite affected by the 80 age prediction. I don't fancy staying alive too long. Seems odd to say it though when I already heard of 2 deaths for the beginning of 2009.

It is true to say at my age, everybody is getting married. I have received too many invites that I'm getting scared now. It is also true to say at this stage, I shouldn't be seeing people my age saying goodbyes. Or is it false?

I tried to remember what made me decided to seize the day (carpe diem) and change my entire life in 2006. While there were a lot of events happening then, I think death is one factor. It is not that I’m fearful of death, but the realisation of a mid-life crisis and the fact that I achieved nothing in the first half.

And now that I’m in 2009, I still don’t see much accomplishment. For these years, how many deaths have I heard due to accidents, illness and overwork. Some were sudden deaths, some were gradual. I can’t say I’m grateful that I don’t know these people personally, because while that means my friends are safe and sound which I’m indeed grateful, I also wish these friends’ friends to be safe if there is a chance. Sigh this is indeed a difficult post to articulate my thoughts.

Forget it, I’m not saying already. But I decided to do another clean up on my online presence. And to those who read my blog, should I ever die, please do not leave messages in Friendster or FB. The feeling when you read such messages is an indescribable pain that makes one feel queasy. And no, I don’t want my friends to be notified of my funeral wake through FB event. While I think it is a good idea, but I am aloof by nature so no, I don’t want to shock my contacts. It is like pouring a tub of icy cold water on them, with no towel to dry them, freezing the heart with an immediate effect.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

News Muse

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It was a stressful week due to a visit by someone very impt (to me)... and he bombarded me so much questions I felt so ashamed of myself... so it was unbelievable that for such a stressful week, I actually had time to read papers (I figured out why, it was because I made myself reach office earlier and thus was in time for the paper distribution hahaha)

It started when someone flipped open MyPaper and I saw the name... the name in my friend's blog... the name of the guy caught in the BKK fire... With a start of a new year, once again someone lost someone... GA, it hurts in a very weird way. For my friend, that guy was his childhood friend whom he lost contact to the extent they both moved house and did not update each other.  For me, she was my jc mate whom I never had a chance to see her again after she left for Mel even after she came back... which is why there are times if I know your foreign address, I will just drop a postacard note, probably to send you some sun from SG because I gathered that people tend to miss home more when in foreign countries (although I will get worried if the note get lost when no response was elicited and I will ask why did I bother to send in the first place, typical me being petty, sorry!). And I suddenly thought of her when I was sending out xmas msg and realised her number is still in my contact list... no wonder she even appeared in my dreams... for? I can't believe a year has gone, how did they coped? I'm stunned...

The second day I took TODAY because of the recycling post. My Thai friend was commenting that it is sad that SG, with such a good facility and co-ordination, has such half-hearted feeble attempts and mentality towards recycling, compared to other countries. I hate to agree with her that we should be doing as good if not better than countries like Japan, because we are smaller in size and should be easier to control. Shucks!

The last day, I decided to take both papers to read haha. I remember while reading, it was kinda depressing. Talks about US economy, talks about companies having 3-day weeks, manufacturing companies having plant shutdown during festive season, and a lot of depressing news. I'm not saying that there shouldn't be any depressing news, I'm only wondering when the corporations paint such a bleak picture, is it truly bleak or were they just making excuses to get rid of the low and top layer and overworked the middle layer. That is how much I hate how human has put a perceived value in everything when we came into this world bringing nothing along and leave this world empty handed. I hate how we are robbing the food from the third world because our money is (in our own opinion) of a higher value than theirs. I hate how outsourcing and globalisation defines the cheap labour and laugh at these people for believing they are well paid (one should watch the movie Outsource (2006) and it was ironic that in the end the call centre moves from US to India to China... to cut cost)

My last news muse is on Trophy Husband. While my friend felt that type of guy is the perfect husband, and wish she has some luck to be the trophy wife too (I believed she has because I believed every girls are glamorous and capable when they find their worth)... I hate that idea of marrying for the sake of marrying. BUT I will not comment or evaluate if the others are marrying for convenience as each has their own definition of marriage. I will just sigh and ponder what is love... (darn, why must I be a believer of love... )

Anyway after that week, I did not managed to get any papers to read already haha. But my brain as usual continues thinking about stuff like maybe now is the best time to hit the books again? Or should I cut my hair before or after CNY or not at all? Or maybe I should just sit back and listen to this beautiful tenor angelic voices and trust that GA will enlighten me soon.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

A Song List

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If I can tell a story through a list of songs, then this is the story I wish to tell you... a story that started a year ago... an open ending story... and the only thing that is certain, is to treasure the present...

Voice On The Radio
- Marie Digby



Last night I fell in love with a stranger
Behind the glass house he came walking out the backdoor
Into a crowd of screaming girls calling his name

I never saw it coming, the way a voice can make me feel
And I fear that I am falling
I should be old enough to know
Not to fall in love with the voice on the radio

So here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same as I do

He's in a rock band with a voice like an angel
And eyes of a raven sky
And suddenly I find myself twelve years old again
Dreaming of you

But who am I kidding to even think that you might see me
It's in the stars that girls like me
And boys like you were never meant to be

So here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same as I do

Would you be scared if I told you I like you
And would you run if I told you I love you

Cuz here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same
As I do, as I do, as I do

I never saw it coming the way a voice can make me feel
And I fear that I am falling
I should be old enough to know
Not to fall in love with the voice on the radio


Standing Still
- Jewel


Cutting through the darkest night
Are my two headlights
Try to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here
To the twilight
There's a dead end to my left
There's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight
You aren't in sight

Do you want me
Like I want you
Or am I standing still
Beneath a darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you passing me by

Mothers on the stoop
Boys in souped-up coupes
On this hot summer night
Between fight and flight
Is the blind man's sight
And a choice that's right
I roll the window down
Feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town
Feel broken down
Feel broken down

Do you need me
Like I need you
Or am I standing still
Beneath a darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you passing me by

Sweet sorrow - He said call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow - He said call tomorrow

Do you love me
Like I love you
Or am I standing still
Beneath a darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you passing me by
Passing by...
Passing by...
Passing by...

How Could This Happen To Me
- Simple Plan


I open my eyes
I try to see
But I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time
When nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't...

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

~Instrumental Part~

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me



Disguise
- Lene Marlin


Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
When your pain will disappear
When you know that it's not true
What they say about you
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come


Still Belive in Love
- Jenny Hyun


It was a clear summer day
when I saw the tears on your face
I knew that our time was up on us

Our moment of end was so fast
But the kiss of goodbye always lasts
Not even time could fade it away

Even though you are no longer here
There is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
Gotta move on and not lose faith
Just another obstacle to take
Live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
This is what life's worth living for (life's worth living for)
I still believe in love
I still believe in love

I'm holding the warmth of your lips
It feels like the first time we kissed
When all of the stars lined up for us

But like the wind you said goodbye
And left me alone here to cry
We shouldn't have gone our separate ways

Even though you are no longer here
There is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
Gotta move on and not lose faith
Just another obstacle to take
Live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
This is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love
I still believe in love

Just another lesson to be learned
Gotta move on and not lose faith
Just another obstacle to take
Live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
This is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love
I still believe in love
I still believe in love


This Is My Now
- Jordin Sparks


There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide,
Was I gonna to play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I've settled for less now I'm ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I'm living in the moment
I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.