Something happened today that triggered me to read back my Somber Musing on 2007. That was 8 years ago. On the eve. When a JC mate I once knew departed suddenly.
In between these 8 years, there were a few more funeral wakes. I remember how I rushed back for my grandpa's funeral. And how I didn't even know my aunt's funeral till it was all over. The only clue was my mum was very slow in her response that period and I wonder what happened. How many times I wonder abroad, what exactly is happening back home. I am detached. Very detached. 6060 meters away. 2-3 hours time difference away. It doesn't sound very far; it doesn't sound very late. But yet, I always feel that I am the last to know of anything that happened.
And today, another friend I knew, had departed suddenly last friday on Christmas Day. Cardiac arrest. I didn't ask much details. What more can I ask? When 8 years ago, I already knew life can be taken away as suddenly as it is given. I can only be glad to have gone hiking with him and Xi Xiong. Short term acquaintance. But it suffice. Those were the hiking days when we all had fun. Even though we no longer went much hiking anymore. Maybe age has caught up. Maybe the hassle. After all carrying all my stuff to hike is taking a toil on me these days.
As 2016 is approaching in 3 more days, I'm back in my favourite Dockland library trying to clear my google drive (ran out of space as the HTC promotion had ended a year later and I have exceeded my quota) and then Xi Xiong whatsapped me to deliver this news. So in between clearing drive and mails, and after reading this poem on "A reason, a season, or a lifetime" and hearing this sudden departure of a friend, I decided maybe it is a cue that I should once again penned this pensieve so that I may fetch it in the future again.
As I continue staring into this favourite view of mine, I'm grateful for the seasons spent which might not transpire to a lifetime. And I hope that 2016 will finally be a clearer path than all my other years before. Because death and life are all very sudden, so I have to made the best of life while waiting to meet my maker still.
In between these 8 years, there were a few more funeral wakes. I remember how I rushed back for my grandpa's funeral. And how I didn't even know my aunt's funeral till it was all over. The only clue was my mum was very slow in her response that period and I wonder what happened. How many times I wonder abroad, what exactly is happening back home. I am detached. Very detached. 6060 meters away. 2-3 hours time difference away. It doesn't sound very far; it doesn't sound very late. But yet, I always feel that I am the last to know of anything that happened.
And today, another friend I knew, had departed suddenly last friday on Christmas Day. Cardiac arrest. I didn't ask much details. What more can I ask? When 8 years ago, I already knew life can be taken away as suddenly as it is given. I can only be glad to have gone hiking with him and Xi Xiong. Short term acquaintance. But it suffice. Those were the hiking days when we all had fun. Even though we no longer went much hiking anymore. Maybe age has caught up. Maybe the hassle. After all carrying all my stuff to hike is taking a toil on me these days.
As 2016 is approaching in 3 more days, I'm back in my favourite Dockland library trying to clear my google drive (ran out of space as the HTC promotion had ended a year later and I have exceeded my quota) and then Xi Xiong whatsapped me to deliver this news. So in between clearing drive and mails, and after reading this poem on "A reason, a season, or a lifetime" and hearing this sudden departure of a friend, I decided maybe it is a cue that I should once again penned this pensieve so that I may fetch it in the future again.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.I guess this friend was a reason. I know him for a very short time but those hiking trips had always been my treasured memories.
When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.But how long is a season? 10 episodes? Then they have season 1, season 2, season 3... New season always happen. And then there are times that a drama suddenly declared this is the last season. Because the ratings have dropped. People have moved on to other dramas. So some people lasts a season. Some people lasts more than one seasons. But I guess more than 1 seasons doesn't mean a lifetime still.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.I'm very sure my family will be with me for my lifetime, however long or short my lifetime is. And I always know that everything happens for a reason, because my GA always guide me. So be it CL who had accompanied me at the start of 2015, or CapFren who usually does guest appearances in between the seasons, or tai tai that I reconnected again when I came back to Melbourne and even my client and her family whom I spent my pre-xmas week with. For however long they were meant to be part of my life. I'm grateful that they were here, for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
As I continue staring into this favourite view of mine, I'm grateful for the seasons spent which might not transpire to a lifetime. And I hope that 2016 will finally be a clearer path than all my other years before. Because death and life are all very sudden, so I have to made the best of life while waiting to meet my maker still.
