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Wednesday, May 05, 2010

A Little Poison

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I'm in a low ebb... and suddenly remembered a blog that I once created at my lowest ebb... http://alittlepoison.blogspot.com/

Of course the project had been scraped, the blog posts deleted... that was probably in 2007? Looking back, did I ever reached an ebb as low as that? I certainly hope not. But did I progress from there? Sigh I have no idea.

Anyway A Little Poison is now managed by a new blogger whose last post is on her marriage.. which makes me wonder about cosmic surprises. A Little Poison was a sad ending for me.. but I certainly hope it is a happy start for her. Congratulations to her!

And I'm still thinking about cosmic surprises. As expected the lady rejected the offer and the agent told them I accepted my offer too. As he updated me via email, the irony is I was smsing my offer because.. I did not manage to clear through the salary negotiation phase. Seriously though, I wasn't surprised. But with all these happenings, I became clear that I have a minimum I am looking for... Except am I rooted (in Elizabet Gilber's words 4 legs on the ground) to believe I deserve that minimum? I have absolutely no idea.. I just felt like insisting this magic number to be able to afford what my next project is on.

Sigh.. I should faster blog Eat Pray Love... and finalised by Italy schedule... maybe that will cheer me up.
Oh and stare more at my kitty... heehee

today someone said it reminds her of Anna Sui.. Felt so flattered.. Anna Sui.. well known for her butterfly motifs (ok it is the only design I notice... kk got black rose too).  I mean imagine I can own her jewellery box.. ok kidding, I don't really want one. But is pretty and I can't stop gushing its beauty haha.
Image Source: Asian Fashion Style

Tenshi

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天使也有守护天使,是为了守护人类而来。
天使也不容易做。

有时会不介意别人怎么说我
也不介意没有人支持我
好像因为有天使陪伴。

Anyway the show is very clichéd. And the angel does not talk haha.. but I think it is better she doesn't talk too. Afterall having finished Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, I am fully convinced that God only speaks through your heart and so if God has no voice, I do not expect my GA to have a voice too. But sometimes I wish I can have a proper conversation with my GA.. like now... then I will ask what is GA's favourite drink to lure GA here hahahah... kidding!

Anyway today's quote is interesting:
ANGELS.--If you woo the company of the angels in your waking hours, they will be sure to come to you in your sleep.--G.D. PRENTICE.

Eckhart Tolle - Using And Relinquishing Negativity

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I first learnt of Eckhart Tolle through Susan G. Wooldridge's Foolsgold. She had shared with us this phrase:

Watch any plant or animal and let it teach you acceptance of what is, surrender to the Now.
Let it teach you Being. Let it teach you integrity - which means to be one, to be yourself, to be real.
Let it teach you how to live and how to die, and how not to make living and
dying into a problem.


Nature nurtures us.
Nature enlightens us.
Nature is our teacher.

So I did a google search on this phrase and found Eckhart Tolle's Using and Relinquishing Negativity article.

I can veer into extremes easily though thankfully I never stayed in either sides too long for comfort. I believed that one must know unhappiness to appreciate happiness and must have negative thoughts to understand how to make things positive for you.

But the author reminded me that
No other life form on the planet knows negativity, only humans, just as no other life form violates and poisons the Earth that sustains it. Have you ever seen an unhappy flower or a stressed oak tree? Have you come across a depressed dolphin, a frog that has a problem with self-esteem, a cat that cannot relax, or a bird that carries hatred and resentment? The only animals that may occasionally experience something akin to negativity or show signs of neurotic behavior are those that live in close contact with humans and so link into the human mind and its insanity.

Hmm then the zoo animals who do exhibit certain signs of depression probably had too much human contact?

But it is indeed not hard to figure out why these animals are actually your best zen masters. Afterall
This is natural wisdom, and it is easy for them because they do not have a mind that keeps the past alive unnecessarily and then builds an identity around it.


But of course do not discount negativity. Use it as a kind of signal that reminds you to be more present.

And most importantly remember the Banzan (Zen master) story.
Before he became a great Zen master, he spent many years in the pursuit of enlightenment, but it eluded him. Then one day, as he was walking in the marketplace, he overheard a conversation between a butcher and his customer. "Give me the best piece of meat you have," said the customer. And the butcher replied, "Every piece of meat I have is the best. There is no piece of meat here that is not the best." Upon hearing this, Banzan became enlightened.

When you accept what it is, every piece of meat (every moment) is the best. 
That is enlightenment.

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Creative Process Reading on 4th May 2010

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Express Creative Process Reading

Creative Force 

The Power behind the force; what do I need to nurture my process and turn my dreams into reality.

The World 

Briefly: Travel is often associated with this card, new found freedom is just around the corner. You may also expect that your situation will improve quite dramatically in the near future and you are able to explore life with more energy and enthusiasm.

Full Meaning: The World. This card shows a woman standing in the centre of the card and all she is wearing is a piece of cloth draped around her body leaving her breasts bare. She is apparently dancing and has a wand of some type in each hand. She has long brown hair and is carefree and open about herself and her motives. There is a wreath of leaves and ribbon surrounding her and behind this is the bull, lion, eagle and the head of a male figure. These represent the four fixed signs of the zodiac which are Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. These signs may very well be symbolic of someone in your life already who is having a huge influence on you, or it can represent someone coming into your life who is born under one of these signs of the zodiac. Travel is often associated with this card, as it can mean travelling the world and meeting many people on your journey. It is also a card of freedom which is indicated by the woman being almost naked. If you wish to be free of some limiting circumstance and then you draw this card, chances are you new found freedom is just around the corner. You may also expect that your situation will improve quite dramatically in the near future and you are able to explore life with more energy and enthusiasm. Circumstance can alter so quickly that you basically blink and then discover you have a new life opening up to you.



Ethereal Essence 

Essence of the force; what choices do I need to make in order to begin this journey.

Wheel of Fortune 

Briefly: This card is a delight to arrive in your reading. Not only can it bring about an unusual turn of events that are quite fortunate for you.

Full Meaning: This card is a delight to arrive in your reading. Not only can it bring about an unusual turn of events that are quite fortunate for you, but that you are finally taking the lead in the direction of your own life and your ultimate destiny. This card suggests not so much that events happen to you, but rather that you instigate many major changes to bring about a new life with new challenges and renewed hope. You may decide to leave a job, leave a partner, or go overseas and the decisions you make with regards to these will be so swift that you will shatter some people's impressions that you were once a stable and slow mover. Now all things must change, and change swiftly.
If you should happen to win the lottery or some other good fortune befalls you, make sure you know exactly what you want to do with your new-found freedom, independence and wealth. The bolt out of the blue is likely to happen just when you thought you were in a rut and didn't anticipate anything was going to alter.
Opportunities can arise thick and fast and leave you gasping for air between this offer and that. Don't allow anyone to push you into anything you are unsure of.




Emotion 

Feelings and senses associated with the process. What will assist and guide me during this time.

The Sun 

Briefly: There is also the possibility, for those who desire a child, that a pregnancy is imminent. Any new business venture also has the signs of success written on it, so proceed with confidence that all will be well.

Full Meaning: This card depicts the Sun and in the front of this are a male and a female looking deep into each others eyes. There are sunflowers on the card, some greenery and a wall in the background. Often this card symbolises Summer or is associated with the sing of Leo. Perhaps an important event will occur around your own Summer month or during the one month time span of Leo which is from July 23 up to August 22. For some this can mean a very special relationship on the horizon, and one that may very well lead to marriage, this will be a successful union and bring much happiness into both people's lives. There is also the possibility, for those who desire a child, that a pregnancy is imminent. Any new business venture also has the signs of success written on it, so proceed with confidence that all will be well. Also a distinct possibility is a trip to a warm location in the near future.



Reflection 

Vision and logic of the creative process. What lessons and guides should I listen for.

Eight of Pentacles 

Briefly: A keen eye for details may lead to you gaining a financial increase.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a dark haired man with a moustache bending over a table laden with coins. He has a hammer in his right hand and an engraving implement in his left hand. He is studiously working away making the coins with his hands. He is strong, muscular and very attentive to details. On the wall behind him are the results of his hard work, various pentacles displayed there for all to see, like awards. If you are this man then are you industrious and will lend a hand wherever possible. You have a keen eye for details and can be counted on to finish the days tasks. You may be about to come into a financial increase of some kind, which may be by your own efforts, or given to you for your own generosity in the past. If you are a woman you may be about to meed this man and he will be a loyal companion and a devoted husband and father if you choose to become united with him. He will be a good provider and keen to see that you get your needs met in every way.



Creation 

Completion, the density or finished manifestation. The outcome based on the current path.

Seven of Swords 

Briefly: A home move.

Full Meaning: Quite often this card signifies a home move. There is a restlessness that gives the feeling of wanting to move on. If it is not a house move, it could be a new relationship, or one that is a significant relationship, such as your first one, or it has been a long time between relationships, or one that proves important in the long run, such as one leading to marriage. However a small word of caution, find out all you can about this new person, for there could be something secretive about him/her.
This can also mean a significant happening or event at night, having to rush off somewhere, to someone's aid perhaps, someone in hospital and/or a time to make quick decisions and act in a hurry, or alternatively you may act in haste during the night.
This card has also been known to indicate a robbery. It could be a thief in your home, or any other place where you keep valuables, such as a car or an office.
Overall, your life now has the potential to alter in some significant way. You could cut ties with your past, your family or friends and go off on your own path. These changes may be irrevocable and can close the door on your old life to make way for a total transition into a new way of living. Just be sure this is exactly what you want to do. You need to be firm and strong in your decision making now and in the near future.



Bflygal's comments: Just want to remind myself this:
You need to be firm and strong in your decision making now and in the near future.
May I be firm and strong from now onwards.

Angel Reading on 4th May 2010

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Angels

 



Angel of Abundance 



Full Meaning: This lovely Angel always comes bearing good news! Perhaps you have been praying for a miracle of the abundance sort. This Angel has appeared to tell you that your prayers have been heard and that by opening your heart and moving through your life with faith and trust, the abundance you seek shall manifest shortly!
This Angel also comes to remind us all that in order for us to have what we are seeking we must also give in such a way that it helps to provide abundance for someone else. Often people will ask and pray for abundance and yet they give very little to anyone else. Their focus is on "well, I just don't have any extra to spare right now yet when I do, I shall be the first to give!" This sort of attitude sets up a vibration that says "I don't have enough" which in turn creates more of what the person doesn't want. It is Universal Law that through our thoughts and actions we tell the Universe what is true for us. And by the Law of Attraction, we can only attract into our lives that which we have set up a resonance for. This Angel comes to remind us that there are many ways we can give and not all take huge amounts of money to get the process flowing! Dropping a few coins into the charity tin at work or school can begin the process of more flowing in. It is the process of letting go of what one already has, in this instance some money, which says to the Universe okay, I am now able to receive more because I have made some space for it! This is not meant to be taken that one is to spend money foolishly in an attempt to get something back, but to give what one can with an open heart and mind knowing that when one gives, one shall also surely receive even more abundance! If you want someone to give to you, then you must also think of what you can give to that person or someone else that helps to complete the cycle of energy exchange. It is no wonder that so many people who follow spiritual paths also live on the edge of poverty, they and many others feeling that spiritual teachings and healings are worth more than money! If you are working with this oracle it is likely that you too are following a spiritual path and thus this angel is saying to you it is time to examine your own beliefs and attitudes towards money from a spiritual perspective. If you are a spiritual teacher or healer can you really feel that it is okay to charge fees that can help you prosper? If you are on the receiving end of these healings and teachings, how much are you willing to spend to receive these things? What is truly important to you? This Angel comes to remind us all that the most important awareness we can have is that we each have a duty to support those people and things that are bringing more light and joy into the world for the benefit of all! Doing anything less says that in reality, we are content with the status quo of people, services and things that do not contribute to the Higher Paths.
This Angel also comes to bring the message that the Universe is total abundance. Look around at nature, Spirit made not one type of flower in one hue but thousands. There are hundreds of different Hummingbirds and within each specie, there are the masses of individuals who are each unique unto themselves. Even human twins have variations between them and certainly no two snow flakes are alike. If this is not a lavish show of abundance I can't think of what is! If you could count every single stone, every twig, every individual insect, grain of sand, human, every plant, the fish in the sea, it would take you countless lifetimes just to count what is on the planet at this point in time, let alone all the new births that would come to pass while you were counting! It truly is infinite right here on our home planet let alone the entire of the Galaxies throughout the Universe! If you can allow this to really sink deep into your consciousness, you would soon find that you will begin to attract more and more abundance of the sort you would really like to have which brings us to this Angel's next message.
You, like everyone else on the planet already has an abundance! The question is, is it an abundance of what gives you joy or an abundance of problems and fears? The Universe truly knows no lack! There is no way for any of us not to be abundant! It is Universal Law that all things must have abundance yet as humans with free will, we also get to choose what sorts of abundance we experience. So we can choose to have an abundance of time to do all the things that give us joy or an abundance of "stuff" to do that simply eats away at our minutes each day. We make those choices each day when we allow others to pressure us into doing things we don't want to do or when we say our dreams and goals are not really worth working for anyway. We can have an abundance of energy or an abundance of lack of energy. We make those choices when we spend our precious time doing things that do not contribute to overall feelings of aliveness and joy or when we are constantly at the beck and call of others who seek to take but rarely give anything back. We can choose to have an abundance of money or an abundance of bills we struggle to pay each month. We make this choice when we spend our money energy on things that have little true value to us as individuals yet we bought them because we hoped they would fill an aching gap within or "having this means I am fitting in with the crowd and just as god as anyone else!" when in reality those things are not truly what makes us happy. Or we can choose to put our money energy towards our soul felt dreams and goals such as starting a business, perhaps investing in companies that have ethics and morals, the dividends going to help support one being a stay at home parent or purchasing a home that will increase in value not to mention providing a loving sanctuary for all who enter.
Look at the abundance you are currently experiencing. Perhaps it is not an abundance of money you need right now but an abundance of more time to spend with your children or partner. Perhaps it is an abundance of down time and relaxation you are really craving. Perhaps it is an abundance of prompt paying clients or customers for your work or business that you are asking for. Now look within yourself and begin asking, why am I experiencing the exact opposite of what I desire? Do I believe truly that there is more than enough abundance to go around? Do I feel guilty asking for more when some appear to have so little? Do I feel this is all I can attract? What ever the cause you find within, this Angel can help you turn it around if you will just ask for help! Keep in mind that abundance comes in many forms so be sure to ask for all the sorts of abundance you truly desire! An abundance of money will not ease the loneliness of an abundance of no friends or no right relationship while an abundance of right relationship can be strained by the abundance of struggle to pay bills each month! Abundance is about balance, being able to accept that there are an abundance of facets to your own life that can not be fulfilled by just one or two things. Each requires its own unique form of abundance!

Bflygal's comments: My firefox crashed and I lose the reading for Angel of Success, a card I picked yesterday. Not saying it does not resonates with me, it does though I have no idea how it helps me answer my question yesterday. And thus my question is left unanswered till now. So when I click this page again, I was thinking if I can get that reading again but I found Angel of Abundance. And I like this reading very very much.
It is no wonder that so many people who follow spiritual paths also live on the edge of poverty, they and many others feeling that spiritual teachings and healings are worth more than money! If you are working with this oracle it is likely that you too are following a spiritual path and thus this angel is saying to you it is time to examine your own beliefs and attitudes towards money from a spiritual perspective. 
I had saw an ad yesterday about this guy aged 29 proclaiming to be financially free through trading. And I felt that I can consider myself financially free not through trading, just by simplifying my life and generating the minimum amount required. What exactly defines abundance is a personal choice. Abundance of unhappiness is still abundance. And thus fulfil the Balance theory I always believed in. 
Often people will ask and pray for abundance and yet they give very little to anyone else. Their focus is on "well, I just don't have any extra to spare right now yet when I do, I shall be the first to give!" This sort of attitude sets up a vibration that says "I don't have enough" which in turn creates more of what the person doesn't want.
I really think it is time I do some spring cleaning to take stock of what I have (extra), and make space for what I want. And I truly believed that the time is ripe for a new addition... Let this post be a time indicator of how long I will take to materialise it.

Saturday, May 01, 2010

地下铁

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A book I read many years ago, a movie I watched many years ago, a tv series I missed though...

Sound of Colors. A blind girl's perspective of the world. Or am I the one that is blind here?

Fail to imagine

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JK Rowling delivers her Commencement Address, “The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination,” at the Annual Meeting of the Harvard Alumni Association on June 2008
Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.
It is not really half my lifetime ago where I was striking an uneasy balance, but half my lifetime ago, I had planted the seed for my dream job. And this seed caused the imbalance a few years later of which I relented too.
I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.
Precisely why even after so many years had gone by and though I regretted never pursuing the vocation I wanted, I know I cannot blame my parents. They were not as open as they are now. A few years later, they did finally realised that what I wanted had immense potential but I had invested too much in my current vocation. And since the expiry date has been made effective, it had been my choice to not continue pursuing this dream vocation (at least not yet, I am still kiv-ing it). And thus while I did not experience poverty (yet, thankfully) and had accidentally gotten into a lucrative industry only to be kicked out (probably the only failure I tried to acknowledge though seriously, I felt it is just a wake-up call that I should be doing what I planted half my lifetime ago.) I strongly believed everything happens for a reason and I am convinced my current vocation has its merits to fulfil my dream job too.
I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
I asked doc if she remember what is my dream job. She is actually the only one I told exactly what it is (if my memory did not fail me.) The rest only had vague idea actually.. till today when I really had to made a decision and so had divulged to CL and my ex-colleague exactly what my dream job entails. Whether they remember it or not is another thing but that is of secondary importance to this point. This point is about “set free” because doc thought setting free is my dream job. Hmm. Can one really be set free though? However if…
Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s places.
Then I guess it is true that one can truly be set free. Imagination sets one free. So..
One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathise. And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.
Fail to imagine. That is why I came up with this blog title. The failure to imagine, is the failure to be set free. And thus I am free all these while if I want to correct doc. Because I day-dream daily haha.
One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality. That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people’s lives simply by existing.
Haha I did not blog at 18.. probably did write diary though but am too lazy to take it out. But I have written so many reviews of interesting articles over the years, and Steve Jobs’ Stay Hungry Stay Foolish was one of those which I had been triggered to remember today at a senior’s advice.

So if JK Rowling felt that at aged 18, in search of something she could not define then lead her to What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality

then for me at the year 2006, while in search of whether my masters is a wise choice gave me opportunities to make friends with people who shared with me Steve Job’s article that
Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.
And so this time it is my choice to leave SAP industry (I could wait for opportunities I guess but I am disheartened with that industry already).

Which somehow reminds me of Steve Jobs when he was fired from Apple which turned out to be a blessing in disguise and allowed him to meet his wife.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

Do not settle because brick walls are there for a reason. But know when you should cut loss as sometimes the so-called brick walls are created by the devil. So is back to my question on resolve. Hmm...anyway back to JK Rowling's speech on imagination...
If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped change. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

As the empowerment card says, “to believe I am more powerful than I realise and instead of worrying what others think about me, I should use the power to make the world a better place”

So today, I wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
It is the journey that matters, the process and not the duration. It is the quality that matters. It is the sincerity that counts. I decided.. that I shall faster finish reading Elizabeth Gilbert Eat, Pray, Love and get my final conclusion.

What Card Are You

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Three of Cups 

Briefly: Good fortune to come your way.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card is of three lovely looking women and they are wearing hairpieces made of flowers and leaves and there is foliage in the background as well. In front of them on a table are three cups and a variety of fruits. This is a card of celebration and abundance. If you draw this card you can expect some type of good fortune to come your way and you will share your goodies with those near and dear to you. A gathering of at least three women will occur to toast the special occasion or event that has just happened or is just about to happen. Perhaps someone is getting engaged or married. It could very well be your own engagement. One woman has dark short hair, the second one has long blonde hair, whilst the third is a redhead.

Friday, April 30, 2010

Single Card Tarot on 30th April 2010

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Ten of Cups 

Briefly: This card symbolises great happiness and contentment.

Full Meaning: This card shows a cup, held in a man’s hand, and joined by a woman’s hand, as they appear to be about to sip together from the liquid in the cup, as if sharing in a celebration of some wonderful event.  There is a rainbow in the background and several tall, green trees, some shrubs, beside a river and with mountains in the far distance.  The sky is blue and the day looks warm as in Springtime.  There are 9 cups across the sky in front of the rainbow. This card symbolises great happiness and contentment.  Two people are brought together in unison and peace to share a special time in their lives.  A joint project has obviously reached fruition and they are proud of their achievements and wish to celebrate in grand style. If you draw this card you may rest assured, that even though it took a long time to get where you are, it has all been worth the effort and the energy expended.  You can relax in your new found comfort zone and pursue your other objectives with peace of mind, knowing that your life is now more secure than it has ever been.

Bflygal's comments: And so I chose to reject because Oracle tells me to Stay optimistic.. after telling me to believe in my power and to tell me to accept heaven's help. So why did I reject.. because it says "Your dreams are coming true. Don't quit right before the miracle occurs." And I thought that means I should not stop waiting.. so I reject. But she tried to hold me and in the end, it is still back to square one.

At 10.20pm, she called to say she is willing to match what the other side offer. I had never once thought of asking a pay increment from them. And I certainly did not reject as a 吊起来卖 tactic. I just rejected cos the card tells me so. So is this my dreams come true?

Accept heaven's help. So what's next?

And doc prob going to complain this is not scientific again... yah I am playing by instinct because Steve Jobs once said Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish. Thanks to senior to remind me of his speech.. and to intro to me JK Rowling's "The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination".

12 Month Overview on 30th April 2010

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May - Ten of Cups

Briefly: This card symbolises great happiness and contentment.

Full Meaning: This card shows a cup, held in a man’s hand, and joined by a woman’s hand, as they appear to be about to sip together from the liquid in the cup, as if sharing in a celebration of some wonderful event. There is a rainbow in the background and several tall, green trees, some shrubs, beside a river and with mountains in the far distance. The sky is blue and the day looks warm as in Springtime. There are 9 cups across the sky in front of the rainbow. This card symbolises great happiness and contentment. Two people are brought together in unison and peace to share a special time in their lives. A joint project has obviously reached fruition and they are proud of their achievements and wish to celebrate in grand style. If you draw this card you may rest assured, that even though it took a long time to get where you are, it has all been worth the effort and the energy expended. You can relax in your new found comfort zone and pursue your other objectives with peace of mind, knowing that your life is now more secure than it has ever been.

June - Ace of Pentacles

Briefly: You will be surprised to learn that one of your greatest financial wishes is about to come true.

Full Meaning: This card shows a large pentacle in the middle which is symbolic of material wealth and abundance. If you should receive this card in your layout, and it is representative of a future event, then you will be surprised to learn that one of your greatest financial wishes is about to come true. This can bring financial stability to those who have never had it before in their life.

July - King of Pentacles

Briefly: A man whose aim is to appear wealthy, which is his ultimate goal.

Full Meaning: On this card we see a man seated on a throne. He looks regal and sophisticated. He holds a sceptre in his left hand and a Pentacle in his right hand. This man is very serious about financial security and has made the accumulation of funds his main preoccupation in life. He is very proud of his achievements and willing to show others his prized possessions. At this time in his life he is probably aged around late thirties to early forties. His work may involve him in the field of banking or the stock-market. The main aim of his life is to be financially secure and then he can relax in his later years in luxury and comfort. Appearances are important to him and to this end he dresses very conservatively and smartly. Comfort is also a factor in his well made and expensive attire. The aim is to appear wealthy, which is his ultimate goal. Usually he rides the wave of success in mid life and is therefore able to display an air of authority and confidence in his position. Others respect him for his determination and passion to succeed. He has mastered his life successfully and is usually married with a few children. His wife is conscious of his material desires and needs and accepts her role as the caretaker of all he owns.

August - The Chariot

Briefly: Travel awaits you. Should the other travel card, the six of swords also be in your card layout, then this is an indicator that you are to move across new ground, or maybe even purchase a mode of travel such as a car.

Full Meaning:

Generally speaking this card depicts some kind of travel. Should the other travel card, the six of swords also be in your card layout, then this is an indicator that you are to move across new ground. However, even by itself, as this is a major arcana card, travel is still a strong possibility. You may travel quite a distance and your goal is to get there, by whatever means you can find, even horseback if necessary. This can also mean that someone is coming from a long distance towards you.

For some people this can represent getting a new mode of transport, such as buying your first car, or buying a new car or bike or whatever. The emphasis is on getting to your destination by the quickest route available.

This card too is about choices. You may have to make a major decision around this time that will alter your circumstances quite dramatically. Do not resist change for that will disrupt the natural flow of events that are waiting to unfold for you.

Also I have seen this card manifest in matters to do with re-decorating the home. Sometimes it is just new curtains or cushions, however the aim is to bring comfort into the home.

September - Nine of Swords

Briefly: An amount of inner tension that needs to find an outlet.

Full Meaning: When you draw this card you are experience a huge amount of inner tension that needs to find an outlet. The card depicts hands tied with rope, and that can represent how you may be feeling deep inside. You could feel you are in a stranglehold situation in various areas of your life and it may seem insurmountable at this time. However, this is quite a temporary state of affairs. All you really have to do is decide what it is that you really want to do about your life and current situation, and then start the wheels in motion to bring it about. This card is also about thoughts and how your thinking is strongly affecting your actions. If your thoughts are depressed, then you may find that you don't quite know just yet how to change anything. All is not lost. You just need to try to alter your thinking slightly and soon you will gain a new perspective. It is just a matter of a little time to allow the thought process to really sink in and then you can take the required action to do what it is necessary to change your life. The amount of time required may also very well correspond with the number nine, e.g. nine days or nine weeks or in the ninth month of September may somehow be relevant. Whatever you do, don't allow other people to make your decisions at this point in time, for you may be very misled and later regret whatever action you took that was not your own true wish.

October - Four of Cups

Briefly: An offer should be considered.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a hand holding a cup and this is reaching out from a cloud and presenting the cup to a person who is surrounded by leaves and there is a hill in the background and many trees. There are three cups full of liquid in the foreground. This can represent an offer to be considered. Sometimes it can symbolise that the person is reluctant to accept any offers. However, the wise person should at least investigate what is being presented, rather than dismissing it without knowing all the facts. Something can arise out of the blue and be a surprise. If you happen to notice that your circumstances may alter quite significantly if you take up some new direction, then proceed with assurance that this is the right path for you at this point in time.

November - Page of Pentacles

Briefly: You may be on the receiving end of some really good news within about one month.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a good looking man of about 22 who is clean shaven and rugged up ready for winter or a long journey. He wears a beret with a feather in it, and a coat with stripes on the sleeves, which could represent a military uniform or other suit related to his field of work. He looks strong and courageous. He is headed in a certain direction and carrying a large Pentacle. He is obviously on a mission to bring some good news to someone. In the background are mountains and a river with tall trees dotting the landscape. This could represent a place you will visit in the near future, or where you will live. If you draw this card, you may be on the receiving end of some really good news within about one month. If the card represents someone you already know, rest assured success lies ahead for them. If the card is yourself, you know where you are going and how to get there. You will gain recognition for your endeavours and the esteem of your contemporaries.

December - Page of Wands

Briefly: Time to go where angels fear to tread and live.

Full Meaning: What a gorgeous young man depicted on this card. He looks romantic and adventurous and daring to go out there and conquer the world and meet his destiny, wherever that may be and with whoever he is yet to meet. He is warm and sensitive and challenged by the adventure of life itself. He knows no fears for he is too young yet to know what that means. He is daring and forthright and persistent to get his needs met. He likes to travel far and wide and will not be restrained by what others want him to do. His life is his own and he knows that he alone owns it. He cannot tolerate lies, deception or unwholesomeness. He welcomes change and will go off on a tangent and leave town on a whim. He knows no boundaries of mind or soul. He has gained some skills in life and has a feather in his cap, so to speak. He will go where angels fear to tread and live the simple life if at all possible. He is poetic and also loves life and learning new skills.

January - Five of Wands

Briefly: A symbol of some conflict that is currently going on around you or is about to take place.

Full Meaning: Often this is a symbol of some conflict that is currently going on around you or is about to take place. However for some it can be a gathering of people, united together to achieve a common goal. This could be akin to builders erecting a house, or even a political party meeting to seek cohesion in their direction. More than likely though a lot of activity takes place and you can see that there are basically many hands on deck. The issue may be that there is some expertise and effort needed to get everyone thinking on the same level, rather than a divided group. If you wish to create a more harmonious state amongst a group of people who are not seeing eye to eye, try to find a common denominator and work on that element of these people.

February - King of Wands

Briefly: A man who has come a long way and yet feels he still has so much to do ahead of him.

Full Meaning: King of Wands. The picture on this card is of a man wearing a warm woollen cape and he has an emblem on the shoulder which could signify some kind of badge or logo associated with his profession. He also wears a hood and he is holding a wand in his left hand. He is often a married man with children. His is warm in character and a good listener. He likes to take charge of situations and can handle most that life presents to him. He is a keen sportsman and is usually very energetic. He is proud and can command respect on entering a room. He is masterful and shows others his talents if he is asked to do so, otherwise he is reflective and private. He is a man who has come a long way and yet feels he still has so much to do ahead of him. Travel is one of his favourite pursuits and he does this to explore nature and the different cultures. He is always open to new challenges and loves learning everything he can about life and the differing philosophies. If you are not this man, and you are male, he may enter your life and you would be grateful to have him as a friend. If you are a young male, this will be who you become after about the age of 35. If you are a woman, this could be your husband or your future husband. If you are a married woman and he is not your husband, he may be the husband of one of your best friends.

March - The Star

Briefly: You are being guided in the right direction. You are also about to have much abundance enter your life through many and varied ways. If you have been looking for a certain job, more than likely you will achieve it and this will reflect what is going on inside you, which is finding your true niche in life.

Full Meaning: This is the card that tells you that you are being guided in the right direction. The picture displays a naked woman kneeling down beside a river with two jugs in her hand. She is pouring the water from the jugs into the stream. In the background is a large star, almost directly above her head and seven other stars around it. There are birds, flowers, trees, shrubbery and green grass around her. She appears tranquil and at peace in her natural surroundings. If this is yourself, you are intuitively heading towards the direction of where you should be on your own personal path in life. You are also about to have much abundance enter your life through many and varied ways. If you have been looking for a certain job, more than likely you will achieve it and this will reflect what is going on inside you, which is finding your true niche in life. You are also able to express yourself more truthfully without hindrances from your past or your upbringing. Your intuition is extremely heightened at this time and can bring on flashes of insight to guide you through the many decisions you are going to be facing. Trust in your future and show great faith against the odds and you will succeed. Something to do with the country, or near a river or ocean may figure strongly in an event which will occur within about one month.

April - The Hermit

Briefly: This card as it reflects a deep thinker, someone who spends time in isolation mulling over the mysteries of life. Much time may have been spent this way, and now it is all about to change.

Full Meaning: This card shows an elderly gentleman with a robe and hood standing atop a mountain holding a lantern in his right hand and a staff in this left hand. It is the middle of the night and the background is dark, and offset by the glow - which looks like a star, emanating from the lantern. The mountain appears to be snow capped and the night seems cold and he is alone. This can signify an event happening at night or in winter. If you are not in a relationship at this point in time, it is likely that you soon will be as this can symbolise the end of being alone, you finally find what you have been looking for, which may have been right under your nose. There is also a deeper significance to this card as it reflects a deep thinker, someone who spends time in isolation mulling over the mysteries of life. Much time may have been spent this way, and now it is all about to change. Prepare yourself in whatever way is necessary. Maybe you need to revamp your image or put on some brighter clothes, rather than hiding yourself under a huge coat or cloak.

Bflygal's comments: Surprisingly Ten of Cups appeared again which kind of enforce my decision to reject. This is the first time I seen the 12 mth overview. And it does paint a very hopeful picture. As long as I accept Heaven's help. I want my dream job to materialise this time but it need not be in the form that I am insisting in. As long as it fulfils what I want to achieve. So, will this offer be able to realise my dream? What amazes me is how sincere she is in hiring me, it totally shocks me. I need to spring clean myself...