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Sunday, May 09, 2010

Creative Process Reading on 9th May 2010

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Creative Force 

The Power behind the force; what do I need to nurture my process and turn my dreams into reality.

Two of Swords 

Briefly: There are decisions to be made. 

Full Meaning: To draw this card shows that there are decisions to be made. However all the facts may not be in at this point in time. There could be something about to crop up that you are not aware of and it may come to light later. Often something is not seen in the clear light of day or there is an unknown factor involved. Time is often of the essence and it is usually worth waiting it out for awhile to see what may arise to clarify the issue. Making a decision with all the facts is much easier than with only half the information.
Sometimes this card can indicate a problem with the eyes. Maybe an operation will be required, an injury may occur, or glasses need to be prescribed, or new glasses or some other matter involving the eyesight.
If this card is not you, or is unlikely to represent any situation directly involving you, then it is possible that it may relate to someone close to you. They may need your insight, or wisdom to help them sort out a dilemma they are in. There may be a situation where someone has to choose between two differing options and is not sure which is the most appropriate one to select.



Ethereal Essence 

Essence of the force; what choices do I need to make in order to begin this journey.

Nine of Wands 

Briefly: A time of waiting, of being patient while the crop ripens or the project matures.

Full Meaning: Nine of Wands. This card has a picture a robust bearded man with a helmet on, carrying a wand over his shoulder and another 8 wands are upright beside him. This is a time of waiting, of being patient while the crop ripens or the project matures. We need to understand that stability arises out of wisdom and patience. Haste and immaturity do not assist our plans at a time like this. We need to develop the sense of endurance and being in it for the long haul. We must persevere and be able to see that nothing of value or no-one of merit arrives prior to the right time. If we can maintain our steadfastness during the period before fruition, then the harvest will reap a healthy profit. It may be time to do things that represent protection, such as battening down the hatches, fixing the fences or the gate or door and ensuring that all is safe within the home. Perhaps we need some other financial protection such as a nest egg, a new savings project or even some insurance of some kind, whether personal or for our belongings. Trust in the old saying that 'all comes to those who wait'.



Emotion 

Feelings and senses associated with the process. What will assist and guide me during this time.

Ten of Swords 

Briefly: A time to recuperate after an operation or period of sickness.

Full Meaning: At first sight this card looks just awful. There is a picture of a person laying face down in the snow with ten swords stuck in his/her back with blood oozing out everywhere. This can give a very distressing impression to your client when seeing this card in their layout. However, generally the card is not as depressing as originally seemed. It can just be a time to recuperate after an operation, which could have involved the back or neck. This person may also be needing some bed rest from exhaustion or is possibly temporarily depressed due to a current situation. Time does heal all wounds. There are stars twinkling in the dark night sky in the background, giving hope and inspiration that dawn will eventually, and always does, arrive. Daylight is only hours away, if only we do not lose sight of that timely event. The person does recover, does carry on and move into the light of day with renewed vigour and enthusiasm. It just sometimes takes a little time and possibly some tender loving care. The month of October may be particularly significant in relation to some event connected to the picture on this card. All is not lost though, as the month comes and goes just like every other month and by November all is generally well again and life is back on track.



Reflection 

Vision and logic of the creative process. What lessons and guides should I listen for.

Eight of Wands 

Briefly: A new love is coming into your life and very swiftly at that.

Full Meaning: This card has a picture of eight wands running right across it. For some this can mean that a new love is coming into your life and very swiftly at that. It brings things quickly into focus and gives you the opportunity to seize a brilliant opportunity or improve your life in some way. You could also be about to move to a more tranquil setting in either your home life or the location or your work. A river or other picturesque scene may be part of your new environment, or you may meet someone special in just such a location. If you are planning a pregnancy, now may be your most fertile time. The energy of the season of Spring may make you feel inspired to be especially creative.



Creation 

Completion, the density or finished manifestation. The outcome based on the current path.

The High Priestess 

Briefly: Mystical studies may also appeal to you at this time, and you could take up the study of subjects such as astrology, tarot or other esoteric knowledge. Incredible gifts await for you. All you have to do is acknowledge that within lies all knowledge. This is a card of wisdom and intelligence.

Full Meaning: This powerful major arcana has incredible gifts for you. All you have to do is acknowledge that within lies all knowledge. This is a card of wisdom and intelligence. It is also an indication of mystical effects and understanding.
This woman can achieve anything she wants. She is studious and persevering. She is enchanting, deep, mysterious and has a unique talent for understanding people and their motives. She is psychic and gifted in many areas of natural law. She knows when to make decisions, when to act and set plans in motion and how to be in complete control of her own destiny. She is a leader, not a follower. She has charm, grace and poise. She is gifted with extra-ordinary understanding, compassion and has humanitarian instincts. She has high ideals and aspires to achieve her planned goals. She is an excellent communicator and listener. She knows when to be quiet. She understands the correct timing on when to plant seeds that will ultimately prosper. She is particularly cool, calm and collected. She is logical and rational and fair. She has a strong sense of justice. The initials B and J may be, or prove to be important in your life. These can represent the initials of people, places and businesses. They are signposts to people and places which will become of profound significance to you.
You could be considering doing some type of studies when you draw this card. Other than that, a teacher, possibly female, may come into your life and have an enormous impact on you. She could teach you valuable lessons that you need to learn.
Should you be considering becoming a teacher yourself, this would be a good indicator that you are on the right track and will achieve success in your chosen field.
Mystical studies may also appeal to you at this time, and you could take up the study of subjects such as astrology, tarot or other esoteric knowledge.

Bflygal's comments:
Funny I had been thinking about going back to study lately...
On a sidenote, I went to check my flower sign...
生日花:鐵線蓮 (Clematis)
花語 : 心之美
花占卜 : 您有一顆純良的心,從不懂欺騙別人,單純地尋求一種如父母般愛護您的友情或愛情。您天生直覺敏銳,幫助您很快找到意中人,但您容易被甜言蜜語誘惑,走上危險的道路。
花箴言 : 當愛火在心中燃點時,是最光芒亦最具殺傷力的。


生日花:时钟花(Passion Flower)
花语:踏实(Steadiness)
时钟花是生长在南美热带雨林的常绿藤蔓植物,它的形状很像时钟上的文字盘 ,所以被称为「时钟花」。这种植物不休息、不迟到,有如刻在时钟上的时刻一样 稳健。因此,它的花语就是-踏实。
受到这种花祝福而生的人,决定一件事情,常会花费相当长的时间去沉思。虽 然深思熟虑可减少错误,但是当你遇到自己喜爱的人时,稍微轻率一下也无妨。

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Interesting facts

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Honey is the only natural food that is made without destroying any kind of life.

Chewing gum while peeling onions keep you from crying.
In Tibet, it is considered good manners to stick out your tongue at someone.

Pearls melt in vinegar.

A newborn baby sees the world upside down because it takes some time for a baby's brain to learn to turn the image right-side up.

You can use pinecones to forecast weather - the scales will close when the rain is on the way.

Ketchup was sold in the 1830s as medicine.

Banana oil never saw a banana; it's made from petroleum.

An average American will spend an average of 6 months during his lifetime waiting at red lights.

People with blue eyes are better able to see in the dark.

A chef's hat is shaped the way it is for a reason: its shape allows air to circulate around the scalp, keeping the head cool in a hot kitchen.

Wearing yellow makes you look bigger on camera; green, smaller.

Left handed people live slightly shorterlives than right handed people.

Hawaii is moving toward Japan 4 inches every year.

Brushing your teeth regularly has been shown to prevent heart disease.

Fifteen people are known to have been crushed to death tilting vending machines towards them in the hope of a free can of soda.

You're born with 300 bones, but by the time you become an adult, you only have 206.
Bflygal's comments: where did the missing 94 bones went? Did I swallow them?????

Fortune cookies were actually invented in America, in 1918 by Charles Jung.

In Europe coffee was once known as Arabian Wine.

91% of us lie regularly.

An egg will float if placed in water in which sugar has been added.

I am a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work the more I have of it.
- Stephen Leacock

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

A Little Poison

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I'm in a low ebb... and suddenly remembered a blog that I once created at my lowest ebb... http://alittlepoison.blogspot.com/

Of course the project had been scraped, the blog posts deleted... that was probably in 2007? Looking back, did I ever reached an ebb as low as that? I certainly hope not. But did I progress from there? Sigh I have no idea.

Anyway A Little Poison is now managed by a new blogger whose last post is on her marriage.. which makes me wonder about cosmic surprises. A Little Poison was a sad ending for me.. but I certainly hope it is a happy start for her. Congratulations to her!

And I'm still thinking about cosmic surprises. As expected the lady rejected the offer and the agent told them I accepted my offer too. As he updated me via email, the irony is I was smsing my offer because.. I did not manage to clear through the salary negotiation phase. Seriously though, I wasn't surprised. But with all these happenings, I became clear that I have a minimum I am looking for... Except am I rooted (in Elizabet Gilber's words 4 legs on the ground) to believe I deserve that minimum? I have absolutely no idea.. I just felt like insisting this magic number to be able to afford what my next project is on.

Sigh.. I should faster blog Eat Pray Love... and finalised by Italy schedule... maybe that will cheer me up.
Oh and stare more at my kitty... heehee

today someone said it reminds her of Anna Sui.. Felt so flattered.. Anna Sui.. well known for her butterfly motifs (ok it is the only design I notice... kk got black rose too).  I mean imagine I can own her jewellery box.. ok kidding, I don't really want one. But is pretty and I can't stop gushing its beauty haha.
Image Source: Asian Fashion Style

Tenshi

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天使也有守护天使,是为了守护人类而来。
天使也不容易做。

有时会不介意别人怎么说我
也不介意没有人支持我
好像因为有天使陪伴。

Anyway the show is very clichéd. And the angel does not talk haha.. but I think it is better she doesn't talk too. Afterall having finished Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, I am fully convinced that God only speaks through your heart and so if God has no voice, I do not expect my GA to have a voice too. But sometimes I wish I can have a proper conversation with my GA.. like now... then I will ask what is GA's favourite drink to lure GA here hahahah... kidding!

Anyway today's quote is interesting:
ANGELS.--If you woo the company of the angels in your waking hours, they will be sure to come to you in your sleep.--G.D. PRENTICE.

Eckhart Tolle - Using And Relinquishing Negativity

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I first learnt of Eckhart Tolle through Susan G. Wooldridge's Foolsgold. She had shared with us this phrase:

Watch any plant or animal and let it teach you acceptance of what is, surrender to the Now.
Let it teach you Being. Let it teach you integrity - which means to be one, to be yourself, to be real.
Let it teach you how to live and how to die, and how not to make living and
dying into a problem.


Nature nurtures us.
Nature enlightens us.
Nature is our teacher.

So I did a google search on this phrase and found Eckhart Tolle's Using and Relinquishing Negativity article.

I can veer into extremes easily though thankfully I never stayed in either sides too long for comfort. I believed that one must know unhappiness to appreciate happiness and must have negative thoughts to understand how to make things positive for you.

But the author reminded me that
No other life form on the planet knows negativity, only humans, just as no other life form violates and poisons the Earth that sustains it. Have you ever seen an unhappy flower or a stressed oak tree? Have you come across a depressed dolphin, a frog that has a problem with self-esteem, a cat that cannot relax, or a bird that carries hatred and resentment? The only animals that may occasionally experience something akin to negativity or show signs of neurotic behavior are those that live in close contact with humans and so link into the human mind and its insanity.

Hmm then the zoo animals who do exhibit certain signs of depression probably had too much human contact?

But it is indeed not hard to figure out why these animals are actually your best zen masters. Afterall
This is natural wisdom, and it is easy for them because they do not have a mind that keeps the past alive unnecessarily and then builds an identity around it.


But of course do not discount negativity. Use it as a kind of signal that reminds you to be more present.

And most importantly remember the Banzan (Zen master) story.
Before he became a great Zen master, he spent many years in the pursuit of enlightenment, but it eluded him. Then one day, as he was walking in the marketplace, he overheard a conversation between a butcher and his customer. "Give me the best piece of meat you have," said the customer. And the butcher replied, "Every piece of meat I have is the best. There is no piece of meat here that is not the best." Upon hearing this, Banzan became enlightened.

When you accept what it is, every piece of meat (every moment) is the best. 
That is enlightenment.

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Creative Process Reading on 4th May 2010

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Creative Force 

The Power behind the force; what do I need to nurture my process and turn my dreams into reality.

The World 

Briefly: Travel is often associated with this card, new found freedom is just around the corner. You may also expect that your situation will improve quite dramatically in the near future and you are able to explore life with more energy and enthusiasm.

Full Meaning: The World. This card shows a woman standing in the centre of the card and all she is wearing is a piece of cloth draped around her body leaving her breasts bare. She is apparently dancing and has a wand of some type in each hand. She has long brown hair and is carefree and open about herself and her motives. There is a wreath of leaves and ribbon surrounding her and behind this is the bull, lion, eagle and the head of a male figure. These represent the four fixed signs of the zodiac which are Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. These signs may very well be symbolic of someone in your life already who is having a huge influence on you, or it can represent someone coming into your life who is born under one of these signs of the zodiac. Travel is often associated with this card, as it can mean travelling the world and meeting many people on your journey. It is also a card of freedom which is indicated by the woman being almost naked. If you wish to be free of some limiting circumstance and then you draw this card, chances are you new found freedom is just around the corner. You may also expect that your situation will improve quite dramatically in the near future and you are able to explore life with more energy and enthusiasm. Circumstance can alter so quickly that you basically blink and then discover you have a new life opening up to you.



Ethereal Essence 

Essence of the force; what choices do I need to make in order to begin this journey.

Wheel of Fortune 

Briefly: This card is a delight to arrive in your reading. Not only can it bring about an unusual turn of events that are quite fortunate for you.

Full Meaning: This card is a delight to arrive in your reading. Not only can it bring about an unusual turn of events that are quite fortunate for you, but that you are finally taking the lead in the direction of your own life and your ultimate destiny. This card suggests not so much that events happen to you, but rather that you instigate many major changes to bring about a new life with new challenges and renewed hope. You may decide to leave a job, leave a partner, or go overseas and the decisions you make with regards to these will be so swift that you will shatter some people's impressions that you were once a stable and slow mover. Now all things must change, and change swiftly.
If you should happen to win the lottery or some other good fortune befalls you, make sure you know exactly what you want to do with your new-found freedom, independence and wealth. The bolt out of the blue is likely to happen just when you thought you were in a rut and didn't anticipate anything was going to alter.
Opportunities can arise thick and fast and leave you gasping for air between this offer and that. Don't allow anyone to push you into anything you are unsure of.




Emotion 

Feelings and senses associated with the process. What will assist and guide me during this time.

The Sun 

Briefly: There is also the possibility, for those who desire a child, that a pregnancy is imminent. Any new business venture also has the signs of success written on it, so proceed with confidence that all will be well.

Full Meaning: This card depicts the Sun and in the front of this are a male and a female looking deep into each others eyes. There are sunflowers on the card, some greenery and a wall in the background. Often this card symbolises Summer or is associated with the sing of Leo. Perhaps an important event will occur around your own Summer month or during the one month time span of Leo which is from July 23 up to August 22. For some this can mean a very special relationship on the horizon, and one that may very well lead to marriage, this will be a successful union and bring much happiness into both people's lives. There is also the possibility, for those who desire a child, that a pregnancy is imminent. Any new business venture also has the signs of success written on it, so proceed with confidence that all will be well. Also a distinct possibility is a trip to a warm location in the near future.



Reflection 

Vision and logic of the creative process. What lessons and guides should I listen for.

Eight of Pentacles 

Briefly: A keen eye for details may lead to you gaining a financial increase.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a dark haired man with a moustache bending over a table laden with coins. He has a hammer in his right hand and an engraving implement in his left hand. He is studiously working away making the coins with his hands. He is strong, muscular and very attentive to details. On the wall behind him are the results of his hard work, various pentacles displayed there for all to see, like awards. If you are this man then are you industrious and will lend a hand wherever possible. You have a keen eye for details and can be counted on to finish the days tasks. You may be about to come into a financial increase of some kind, which may be by your own efforts, or given to you for your own generosity in the past. If you are a woman you may be about to meed this man and he will be a loyal companion and a devoted husband and father if you choose to become united with him. He will be a good provider and keen to see that you get your needs met in every way.



Creation 

Completion, the density or finished manifestation. The outcome based on the current path.

Seven of Swords 

Briefly: A home move.

Full Meaning: Quite often this card signifies a home move. There is a restlessness that gives the feeling of wanting to move on. If it is not a house move, it could be a new relationship, or one that is a significant relationship, such as your first one, or it has been a long time between relationships, or one that proves important in the long run, such as one leading to marriage. However a small word of caution, find out all you can about this new person, for there could be something secretive about him/her.
This can also mean a significant happening or event at night, having to rush off somewhere, to someone's aid perhaps, someone in hospital and/or a time to make quick decisions and act in a hurry, or alternatively you may act in haste during the night.
This card has also been known to indicate a robbery. It could be a thief in your home, or any other place where you keep valuables, such as a car or an office.
Overall, your life now has the potential to alter in some significant way. You could cut ties with your past, your family or friends and go off on your own path. These changes may be irrevocable and can close the door on your old life to make way for a total transition into a new way of living. Just be sure this is exactly what you want to do. You need to be firm and strong in your decision making now and in the near future.



Bflygal's comments: Just want to remind myself this:
You need to be firm and strong in your decision making now and in the near future.
May I be firm and strong from now onwards.

Angel Reading on 4th May 2010

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Angels

 



Angel of Abundance 



Full Meaning: This lovely Angel always comes bearing good news! Perhaps you have been praying for a miracle of the abundance sort. This Angel has appeared to tell you that your prayers have been heard and that by opening your heart and moving through your life with faith and trust, the abundance you seek shall manifest shortly!
This Angel also comes to remind us all that in order for us to have what we are seeking we must also give in such a way that it helps to provide abundance for someone else. Often people will ask and pray for abundance and yet they give very little to anyone else. Their focus is on "well, I just don't have any extra to spare right now yet when I do, I shall be the first to give!" This sort of attitude sets up a vibration that says "I don't have enough" which in turn creates more of what the person doesn't want. It is Universal Law that through our thoughts and actions we tell the Universe what is true for us. And by the Law of Attraction, we can only attract into our lives that which we have set up a resonance for. This Angel comes to remind us that there are many ways we can give and not all take huge amounts of money to get the process flowing! Dropping a few coins into the charity tin at work or school can begin the process of more flowing in. It is the process of letting go of what one already has, in this instance some money, which says to the Universe okay, I am now able to receive more because I have made some space for it! This is not meant to be taken that one is to spend money foolishly in an attempt to get something back, but to give what one can with an open heart and mind knowing that when one gives, one shall also surely receive even more abundance! If you want someone to give to you, then you must also think of what you can give to that person or someone else that helps to complete the cycle of energy exchange. It is no wonder that so many people who follow spiritual paths also live on the edge of poverty, they and many others feeling that spiritual teachings and healings are worth more than money! If you are working with this oracle it is likely that you too are following a spiritual path and thus this angel is saying to you it is time to examine your own beliefs and attitudes towards money from a spiritual perspective. If you are a spiritual teacher or healer can you really feel that it is okay to charge fees that can help you prosper? If you are on the receiving end of these healings and teachings, how much are you willing to spend to receive these things? What is truly important to you? This Angel comes to remind us all that the most important awareness we can have is that we each have a duty to support those people and things that are bringing more light and joy into the world for the benefit of all! Doing anything less says that in reality, we are content with the status quo of people, services and things that do not contribute to the Higher Paths.
This Angel also comes to bring the message that the Universe is total abundance. Look around at nature, Spirit made not one type of flower in one hue but thousands. There are hundreds of different Hummingbirds and within each specie, there are the masses of individuals who are each unique unto themselves. Even human twins have variations between them and certainly no two snow flakes are alike. If this is not a lavish show of abundance I can't think of what is! If you could count every single stone, every twig, every individual insect, grain of sand, human, every plant, the fish in the sea, it would take you countless lifetimes just to count what is on the planet at this point in time, let alone all the new births that would come to pass while you were counting! It truly is infinite right here on our home planet let alone the entire of the Galaxies throughout the Universe! If you can allow this to really sink deep into your consciousness, you would soon find that you will begin to attract more and more abundance of the sort you would really like to have which brings us to this Angel's next message.
You, like everyone else on the planet already has an abundance! The question is, is it an abundance of what gives you joy or an abundance of problems and fears? The Universe truly knows no lack! There is no way for any of us not to be abundant! It is Universal Law that all things must have abundance yet as humans with free will, we also get to choose what sorts of abundance we experience. So we can choose to have an abundance of time to do all the things that give us joy or an abundance of "stuff" to do that simply eats away at our minutes each day. We make those choices each day when we allow others to pressure us into doing things we don't want to do or when we say our dreams and goals are not really worth working for anyway. We can have an abundance of energy or an abundance of lack of energy. We make those choices when we spend our precious time doing things that do not contribute to overall feelings of aliveness and joy or when we are constantly at the beck and call of others who seek to take but rarely give anything back. We can choose to have an abundance of money or an abundance of bills we struggle to pay each month. We make this choice when we spend our money energy on things that have little true value to us as individuals yet we bought them because we hoped they would fill an aching gap within or "having this means I am fitting in with the crowd and just as god as anyone else!" when in reality those things are not truly what makes us happy. Or we can choose to put our money energy towards our soul felt dreams and goals such as starting a business, perhaps investing in companies that have ethics and morals, the dividends going to help support one being a stay at home parent or purchasing a home that will increase in value not to mention providing a loving sanctuary for all who enter.
Look at the abundance you are currently experiencing. Perhaps it is not an abundance of money you need right now but an abundance of more time to spend with your children or partner. Perhaps it is an abundance of down time and relaxation you are really craving. Perhaps it is an abundance of prompt paying clients or customers for your work or business that you are asking for. Now look within yourself and begin asking, why am I experiencing the exact opposite of what I desire? Do I believe truly that there is more than enough abundance to go around? Do I feel guilty asking for more when some appear to have so little? Do I feel this is all I can attract? What ever the cause you find within, this Angel can help you turn it around if you will just ask for help! Keep in mind that abundance comes in many forms so be sure to ask for all the sorts of abundance you truly desire! An abundance of money will not ease the loneliness of an abundance of no friends or no right relationship while an abundance of right relationship can be strained by the abundance of struggle to pay bills each month! Abundance is about balance, being able to accept that there are an abundance of facets to your own life that can not be fulfilled by just one or two things. Each requires its own unique form of abundance!

Bflygal's comments: My firefox crashed and I lose the reading for Angel of Success, a card I picked yesterday. Not saying it does not resonates with me, it does though I have no idea how it helps me answer my question yesterday. And thus my question is left unanswered till now. So when I click this page again, I was thinking if I can get that reading again but I found Angel of Abundance. And I like this reading very very much.
It is no wonder that so many people who follow spiritual paths also live on the edge of poverty, they and many others feeling that spiritual teachings and healings are worth more than money! If you are working with this oracle it is likely that you too are following a spiritual path and thus this angel is saying to you it is time to examine your own beliefs and attitudes towards money from a spiritual perspective. 
I had saw an ad yesterday about this guy aged 29 proclaiming to be financially free through trading. And I felt that I can consider myself financially free not through trading, just by simplifying my life and generating the minimum amount required. What exactly defines abundance is a personal choice. Abundance of unhappiness is still abundance. And thus fulfil the Balance theory I always believed in. 
Often people will ask and pray for abundance and yet they give very little to anyone else. Their focus is on "well, I just don't have any extra to spare right now yet when I do, I shall be the first to give!" This sort of attitude sets up a vibration that says "I don't have enough" which in turn creates more of what the person doesn't want.
I really think it is time I do some spring cleaning to take stock of what I have (extra), and make space for what I want. And I truly believed that the time is ripe for a new addition... Let this post be a time indicator of how long I will take to materialise it.

Saturday, May 01, 2010

地下铁

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A book I read many years ago, a movie I watched many years ago, a tv series I missed though...

Sound of Colors. A blind girl's perspective of the world. Or am I the one that is blind here?

Fail to imagine

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JK Rowling delivers her Commencement Address, “The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination,” at the Annual Meeting of the Harvard Alumni Association on June 2008
Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.
It is not really half my lifetime ago where I was striking an uneasy balance, but half my lifetime ago, I had planted the seed for my dream job. And this seed caused the imbalance a few years later of which I relented too.
I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.
Precisely why even after so many years had gone by and though I regretted never pursuing the vocation I wanted, I know I cannot blame my parents. They were not as open as they are now. A few years later, they did finally realised that what I wanted had immense potential but I had invested too much in my current vocation. And since the expiry date has been made effective, it had been my choice to not continue pursuing this dream vocation (at least not yet, I am still kiv-ing it). And thus while I did not experience poverty (yet, thankfully) and had accidentally gotten into a lucrative industry only to be kicked out (probably the only failure I tried to acknowledge though seriously, I felt it is just a wake-up call that I should be doing what I planted half my lifetime ago.) I strongly believed everything happens for a reason and I am convinced my current vocation has its merits to fulfil my dream job too.
I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
I asked doc if she remember what is my dream job. She is actually the only one I told exactly what it is (if my memory did not fail me.) The rest only had vague idea actually.. till today when I really had to made a decision and so had divulged to CL and my ex-colleague exactly what my dream job entails. Whether they remember it or not is another thing but that is of secondary importance to this point. This point is about “set free” because doc thought setting free is my dream job. Hmm. Can one really be set free though? However if…
Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s places.
Then I guess it is true that one can truly be set free. Imagination sets one free. So..
One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathise. And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.
Fail to imagine. That is why I came up with this blog title. The failure to imagine, is the failure to be set free. And thus I am free all these while if I want to correct doc. Because I day-dream daily haha.
One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality. That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people’s lives simply by existing.
Haha I did not blog at 18.. probably did write diary though but am too lazy to take it out. But I have written so many reviews of interesting articles over the years, and Steve Jobs’ Stay Hungry Stay Foolish was one of those which I had been triggered to remember today at a senior’s advice.

So if JK Rowling felt that at aged 18, in search of something she could not define then lead her to What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality

then for me at the year 2006, while in search of whether my masters is a wise choice gave me opportunities to make friends with people who shared with me Steve Job’s article that
Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.
And so this time it is my choice to leave SAP industry (I could wait for opportunities I guess but I am disheartened with that industry already).

Which somehow reminds me of Steve Jobs when he was fired from Apple which turned out to be a blessing in disguise and allowed him to meet his wife.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

Do not settle because brick walls are there for a reason. But know when you should cut loss as sometimes the so-called brick walls are created by the devil. So is back to my question on resolve. Hmm...anyway back to JK Rowling's speech on imagination...
If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped change. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

As the empowerment card says, “to believe I am more powerful than I realise and instead of worrying what others think about me, I should use the power to make the world a better place”

So today, I wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
It is the journey that matters, the process and not the duration. It is the quality that matters. It is the sincerity that counts. I decided.. that I shall faster finish reading Elizabeth Gilbert Eat, Pray, Love and get my final conclusion.

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Three of Cups 

Briefly: Good fortune to come your way.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card is of three lovely looking women and they are wearing hairpieces made of flowers and leaves and there is foliage in the background as well. In front of them on a table are three cups and a variety of fruits. This is a card of celebration and abundance. If you draw this card you can expect some type of good fortune to come your way and you will share your goodies with those near and dear to you. A gathering of at least three women will occur to toast the special occasion or event that has just happened or is just about to happen. Perhaps someone is getting engaged or married. It could very well be your own engagement. One woman has dark short hair, the second one has long blonde hair, whilst the third is a redhead.