许哲佩 - 疯子

许哲佩 - 疯子

刷牙我想哭 洗脸我想哭
走路我想哭 静止我想哭
出太阳我想哭 起风我想哭
听歌我想哭 看喜剧我想哭
我控制不住自己 负担太重的情绪
我拒绝面对结局 沉重的问题我不想听
伱给的很多规矩 说了很久的道理
却瞒不了我的心
再压抑 再压抑 我快不行..
(天摇地动 昏天暗地)
有眼泪 没眼泪
伱觉得 我疯了
我瞬间耳鸣 听不见伱们说的
我疯言 我疯语 眼泪让我瞎了
我哭我 眼前世界
原来快乐要用悲伤换的

刷牙我想哭 洗脸我想哭
走路我想哭 静止我想哭
出太阳我想哭 起风我想哭
听歌我想哭 看喜剧我想哭
我控制不住自己 负担太重的情绪
我拒绝面对结局 沉重的问题我不想听
伱给的很多规矩 说了很久的道理
却瞒不了我的心
再压抑 再压抑 我快不行..
(天摇地动 昏天暗地)
有眼泪 没眼泪
伱觉得 我疯了
我瞬间耳鸣 听不见伱们说的
我疯言 我疯语 眼泪让我瞎了
我哭我 眼前世界
原来快乐要用悲伤换的

可知不知道
伱别在否认
我要的自由能不能够永生
可是我累了
我只好哭了
我像疯子的般不停的哭
我没有出路
伱也当我是个疯子 我是个疯子

Bflygal's comment:
I don't mean to be mad at times. But the things I do, people just don't agree. Sometimes I also don't know why I make the arrangement. Find my limit?

Everything I do, I was treated like an impatient kid. And I was advised countlessly to take my time to slowly understand. Slowly realise. Think carefully before I submit.

Am I impatient? Is this a quarterly life crisis? Or half life crisis based on my own yardstick.

I started my first evening class yesterday. I was alert in the class surprisingly. But I was really dead tired the moment I reach home. Can I last this month? And if so, can I continue for the next month the same arrangement?

I need to learn ruby. I need to do reports. I need to train my stamina. I need most, to find my treasure, to find myself.

Tsukarete imasu!