The Hospital

Lately for the sake of a show, I tried to learn Cantonese first. And I did that by watching The Legend of the Condor Heroes. The only thing is to keep watching an episode continuously but still unable to catch the Cantonese phrase is draining my energy.

I got so tired that in the end I spent my Good Friday, watching The Hospital, finishing 10 episodes in a day. In some sense, it really made me think. Think about politics. Think about patient’s life being used in the power struggle. Think about life and death. Think about the pain the patient is suffering. Think about the pain the family feels. Think about anesthetics. Think about euthanasia.

Every time I see the agony of the patient, I see the tears of the family, I feel so sad for them. To see the patient being made used for the power struggle, I really wonder if this is reality. I felt pained seeing a couple removing the life support of the baby and hugging the baby the first time.

I have only finished 15 episodes. I’m not sure if I will continue on. I felt helpless when I see the doctor put in 101% effort but the patient still left the world. I guess this is reality. Life and death crosses path with each other every day in the hospital.

Actually I have watched a few hospital shows, talking about doctors, about nurses, about NKF patients. Every time I feel sad watching such show. And I wonder why must there be pain to know the importance of life, the preciousness of life, the fragility of life.

Life is so fragile; I wonder how it survives the harshness of the reality. Maybe human does have a way to survive after all.

Ai yori aoshi

I was searching for the meaning of Kaoru when I saw this title and decided to read about it.

Maybe it is the title that intrigues me.
Ai Yori Aoshi means "Bluer Than Indigo". It is based on an old Chinese proverb: blue dye is made from indigo colored grass, yet the blue dye's color is much deeper than the color of its origin. In another words, the pupil has exceeds the master. Sounds interesting.

And the 2 characters name are referenced from flowers
Kaoru Hanabishi :
Kaoru means "fragrant" (the pleasant smells commonly attributed to flowers)
Hanabishi refers to a flower-shaped family crest

Aoi Sakuraba:
Aoi means "hollyhock", an Asian plant having a long cluster of showy, variously colored flowers
Sakuraba refers to a cherry blossom courtyard or garden

Taeko Minazuki:
Taeko means "delicate child", reflecting her clumsy personality

Mayu Miyuki:
Mayu means "cocoon", a reference to her family owning a silk company.

Anyway seems like another Harem Anime... like Love Hina (Rabu Hina).. see if I'm fated to watch it bah. For now, I'm happy to learn some of the Japanese words.

許茹芸-好聽

昨天听到了酸酸甜甜的《好听》
是吴克群创作新歌赠许茹芸

从种子音乐，找到了許茹芸《好聽》新歌介紹。

许茹芸觉得这首歌给她一种刚开始谈恋爱的时候。
酸酸甜甜的滋味，
即期待又怕受伤害的感觉，
当你接到电话的那一刹那，
所有听到的每一个字每一句，
都是你印象当中最深刻。

歌词好像是：
你说的话我都相信
我的逃避
我的甜蜜
你说的每一句
我都相信一世
你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把它当游戏
我却爱的太用力

之后的我就不太清楚了，
而我为什么那么喜欢，
可能是因为印象中，
女生后来不再想知道男生喜欢不喜欢:

你爱不爱我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然后。。。
再也不去理。

等多几天再查歌词吧！

My Girl

Site : My Girl

I have finally completed this Korean TV show. Not that the show is terrible to watch. On the contrary, the show has its humorous times and torturous time. Maybe is towards the end, it is so torturous that I cannot bring myself to watch it.

But I still watched it finish. Maybe because I know at the end is still a happy ending. However it took me quite a lot of tears before I finally reached the happy ending.

Both the guys Lee Dong Wook (as Seol Gong-chan) and Lee Joon Ki (as Seo Jung-woo) are quite an eye candy. Hmm I think I have a tendency to like guys who look metrosexual. My first idol is Jimmy Lin. Then lately I like Wu Zun which I feel looks like a girl more than Ella. And in this show, I find Lee Joon Ki quite cute too haha. To see how heartbroken he is, how he is always late by 1 step, how he tried to give up but failed, tried to persist but also failed. Every time I see him, I pitied him.

Lee Da Hae (as Joo Yoo-rin) and Park Si Yeon (as Kim Seo-hyun) are also 2 very beautiful ladies. Logically I would prefer Lee Da Hae, not because she is less scheming than Park Si Yeon. Just that I like her never say die attitude. No matter how tough life is, she will keep telling herself to BASHA! Every time she says BASHA!, I will silently tell myself to BASHA! too.

I’m not sure if she drops tears easily, but I know I do. Every time I see her cry, I cry with her. I wonder why my tears flow so easily. Even a show like Prince Turn To Frog, where my mum says is quite a happy show, I actually cried at scenes when the female lead realised the guy has forgotten about their love, when the guy turned cold and callous.

I cried when Lee Da Hae realised she fell for the guy, I felt my heart broke into pieces when they realised they can never be together (until grandpa forgive them), I was shattered when she said all those lies just to protect the man she loves, only because she realised the only way to protect is by lying.

Grandpa says that
唯独爱情是靠缘分
谁能阻挡得了缘分
Maybe everything boils down to fate. Many years ago, she saved his real cousin. Many years later, she pretended to be his fake cousin. Fate is forever weird in expressing itself.

逃到很远的地方前
先逃到很高的地方
Thus this couple likes to take the lift to DLI (Daehan Life Insurance) 63 Building (63 빌딩 or 육삼 빌딩). The lift up to the storey seems so long and arduous, that they tend to have quite a lot of missed chances. Hmm… but I think to go to one of the highest building and have a panorama view is indeed a wise choice. When you see how small the surroundings are, you will realise your worries are insignificant. Besides that building seems like a pretty place to go, I hope to go there one day too.

One day when I decided to go somewhere far, I must remember to first visit somewhere high…

Korean phrase I wish to remember :
사기꾼이 하는 말에 속다. (Sagiggun-i haneun mal-e sokda) Be deceived by the words of a swindler.

Giant & Ikea

I finally visited the 2 places I wanted to visit. Although I wonder why am I so crazy to go to such crowded area and see Singaporeans in their worst behaviour?



Giant was actually the typical Giant that I seen in IMM, in Vivo. It is only one level and sells a huge variety of stuff from clothes, to DVDs to food stuff. I must admit that some of their DVDs are really cheap, starting from 5 bucks onwards. In addition, some of their stuff is cheap. Thus you can see people taking a few of it.

What is comical though is the number of people standing at the longan corner, plucking the longan from its stalks. By removing the stalks, they are lightening the weight of the longan. I guess this is a way to get the most out of what you pay. But such sight is really amusing.

The not so amusing sights will be people ramming their trolley over your feet and pushing around, and blocking pathways. It is really depressing to see such scenes.

Oh in Giant I found a very big pumpkin. Wah Cinderella might have been delighted at this pumpkin.


I also found that pumpkin can be another shape.. like this. So weird right. I guess it would be a very weird carriage if Cinderella had used it.




Then we went Ikea to eat their famous chicken wings and meatballs. Not bad I would say. Just that it is sad to see people not clearing up their dishes when they are done. Maybe they did not know that one has to clear up. Guess we are too used to leaving our plates for others to clean up.





Found some cute looking lamps haha. I think it is the only thing that caught my fancy.



Anyway I find Ikea’s layout is a maze. It is like capturing you in and refusing to let you out anymore. We had difficulty walking around and finding the exit.

Overall am just glad to have visited these 2 mega places. Not sure if I will go a second time though...

Bright Hill Crematorium

Yesterday was the first time I went to Bright Hill Crematorium. Ever since my maternal grandparents moved from Aljunied to Bright Hill Crematorium, I have never visited them once. Sigh, I feel so unfilial.

清明时节雨纷纷，路上行人欲断魂。
借问酒家何处有？牧童遥指杏花村。
----（唐）杜 牧

And yesterday is a rainy day. It drizzles when we were about to reach the place. And due to the jam, we alighted earlier and walk a distance to the crematorium. Then we start preparing the stuff; display the food, packed the money and clothes for my maternal grandparents. It is quite amazing to see so many small photos displayed in this hall that was meant for praying.



As the day got brighter, more and more people arrived. We went through a few rounds of praying, and had a priest chant for my grandparents. We also went to visit and clean the tomb.



Then we went to another place to burn the offerings. It was like a burning furnace.



Then we had vegetarian noodle for lunch and headed home. The bus was delayed for almost an hour due to the heavy traffic in that area. And it started drizzling again. Guess that rain is really an essential sign during such festival.



I’m glad to have visited my grandparents. I know they loved me when I was young. It only seemed like yesterday where I can still vividly remember my weekly visits to them. I really wonder how they are coping at the other side.

Do profiles matter?

This question came into my mind suddenly. Do profiles matter? Why is it that when you change your profile in Friendster, everybody in your contact list will be informed? Maybe if it is a piece of good news, they can share with you. And if it isn’t, they will tread more carefully.

I hesitated to update my profile. I remember I did update once, but I changed it back because I did not want friends asking me about it. But this time, I see that it is really time to change since the other party has changed too. It seems more right to update it. And maybe it helps me inform my friends of a topic that I do not know how to broach about. Maybe my friends will scold me, maybe they will ask questions. And maybe I do not want to entertain all these.

Self discipline means doing the things that you don’t like but it must be done. Do profiles matter? Guess so.

Pursuit of Happyness

Utterly depressing is what I can say of this movie.

I knew it will be a typical storyline where he will have a happy ending in the end. But his happy ending lasted less than 1 minute. Too short for me to feel happy for him. Because I felt torturous for too long. If everything bad could happen, then he got everything bad and nothing good. Except for times where he managed to sell his machine to a doctor. That is one of the rare times he will smile. And when he faced his son, his fatherly love impressed me.

If I am going through half of his tortures, I think I might have killed myself or turned myself into a hermit and embarked on a mission of mediation. Actually I don't know what I will do. But I really doubt I have his energy to keep persevering on.

I'm quite impressed with his determination. Something about his determined attitude reminds that I must be stronger too hee hee! Never Give Up!

徐若瑄 - 美人鱼

我是一条没有人养的鱼　
背着自由 面无表情
彩色眼睛 受伤的心　
只有看到黑白的你

我像一条没有人养的鱼　
我的悲伤 你不在意
说过的话 飘过脸颊　
我无法挥去一切从心再来

舍不得 我为什么说再见
能不能 收回我说的每一句话
舍不得 我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼

RAP:
总是在夜里我不停的想你
你的每个笑在我心里是最重要的氧气
总是在心里大喊着我还是深爱着你
现在这片海洋少了你
只剩下我和你的甜蜜回忆

你的温柔总是来了又去
我的孤单 不稀罕同情
你的电话 忍住不打
我不想变成习惯等你回来

舍不得 我为什么说再见
能不能 收回我说的每一句话
舍不得 我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼

舍不得 我为什么说再见

RAP:
不用再说　不必再做

*RAP Goes On As 徐若萱 Sings
能不能 收回我说的每一句话
舍不得 我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
游向幸福的大海里

*RAP:
不用再说　不必再做
其实说得再多做得再多
还不是因为我
不想忘记那些漫漫漫漫的从前
我听见月亮 也在偷偷为了我哭泣
我逃避自己我的心 为何始终不想放弃
大声告诉自己　应该别再继续 孤单的
游回彼此心中的那片 幸福的大海里
游回彼此心中的

The Devil Wears Prada

Finally finished the book. Usually I prefer to read the book before watching the movie. But sometimes, time doesn't permit like this case. So I watch the movie first before I read the book. And I must say, the book paints the devil much more devilish than the movie. And that there is no happy ending in the book.

Maybe that is life. After you had changed because of your job, and cause the love to change, do you really expect that by quitting your job, your love will be returned back to normal? It only happens in movie. In the book, Andrea and Alex's relationship was still left hanging.

And if your boss is a devil who says you reminded her when she is young, do you really think she will take kindly after you humiliated her in public? But then in the book, Andrea humiliated her boss. In the movie, Andrea had showed genuine concern about Miranda being replaced. So maybe that is why in the end, Miranda smiled when she sees Andre again.

I guess when work consumes your life, you can become a demon seduced. No matter how much your conscience tells you, how bad you felt, you just keep working and pray it will be over soon. But the workaholic in you knew that you are only wading further and further into the deep sea.

I guess that is life too. Because in life, anything related to human needs 2 or more to clap. It is too unpredictable. Career however is a one-sided love affair. Much easier to manage that one tends to choose career over love. It is so much easier to self indulge in career than mutual commit in love. That is why there are so many workaholics, so many unhappy relationships in the modern society.

Luckily Andre realised this fast and not when she is old and callous like Miranda where it is too late to regret and reclaimed what she has lost. How many more are still lost in this power struggle or just fighting for life's survival?