Sweet Lies - Ito Kanako

Sweet Lies
- Ito Kanako

Please tell me lies (Tell me you'll always be)
Sweet scented lies (Hold me, speak love to me)
I can't let go (Your heat inside)
Lying here alone

Please tell me lies (Teach me the love I need)
Your funny little lies (Touch me and smile once more)
Why did you go? (The warmth is lost)
This room is so cold
(And I) don't know if I can make it on my own

Your kiss
Your sweet caress
Your heartbeat
Call my name
But all are Ghosts
That haunt my heart (Tears keep falling)

I'd give up anyting the world can ever offer
I give my heart to you. There'll never be no other
Just to be by your side
Just to feel your breath beside mine
I'd give my soul if I had to, No, nothing ever matters

I'll give up everything, the only one desire
I give my heart to you and that will be forever
Just to feel you inside
Just to feel your heartbeat with mine
I'm yours to take forever. No, nothing ever matters
So please

Please tell me lies (Tell me you always be)
Soft gentle lies (Hold me, speak love to me)
I can't let go (Your heat inside)
I'm here so alone
(And I) don't know if I can make it on my own

Your kiss
Your sweet caress
Your heartbeat
I call your name
But now they're Ghosts
That haunt my heart (Tears keep falling)

I'd give up anyting the world can ever offer
I give my heart to you. There'll never be no other
Just to be by your side
Just to feel your breath beside mine
I'd give my soul if I had to, No, nothing ever matters

I'll give up everything, the only one desire
I give my heart to you and that will be forever
Just to feel you inside
Just to feel your heartbeat with mine
I'm yours to take forever. No, nothing ever matters
So please

I'd give up anyting the world can ever offer
(Your sweet lies)
I give my heart to you. There'll never be no other
(You make me feel)
Just to be by your side
Just to feel your breath beside mine
(That I'm not alone)
I'd give my soul if I had to, No, nothing ever matters
(Please tell me lies)

I'll give up everything, the only one desire
(Your sweet lies)
I give my heart to you and that will be forever
(You make me feel)
Just to feel you inside
Just to feel your heartbeat with mine
(That I'm not alone)
I'm yours to take forever. No, nothing ever matters
(So Please tell me lies)
So please

Bfly’s comments:
I am on the verge of break down. I need lies. I need to be deceived. Because it hurts.. it really hurts. Ever since I made that decision, I never had peace. I forced myself to accept, to leave, for certain reasons. And I ended up more hurt than ever, in terms of all aspects of my life.

I guess I’m hasty. I grabbed this hoping it is a lifeline, to forget him. Or at least care lesser for him. And yet I ended up still buying something for him again. Stupid me even bought another, just to convince myself I did not buy it specially for him. But who am I kidding?

And is this a lifeline? I got embroiled in politics. I ended up working OT every single available day including weekends to complete my work. I ended up more stressed because I know they want me to clear my stuff even though they did not tell me directly. And I am unable to heck care because this is my character. I ended up weeping at weird times.. just to release my pent-up emotions. I ended up making them angry. I ended up feeling hurt that I am unable to get their blessings. I ended up seeing the true colours of some people through the planning of farewell.

Just let me vent because after this rant, at least I hope to be calmer and buy something back for them in Japan. Even if the person doesn’t treat me with the same regard, I should not do the same. Because I’m grateful for what they taught me all these while. It hurts when your actions don’t get reciprocated. But then I’m already doing it for him, so including a few others should not be too tough. Because I should not be calculative in the first place. I need an outlet to disperse such negative feelings, to be able to withstand this test. And yes, I need to open up. Because it is not a choice.