教我看世界的勇气 , 把最好的我交给爱我的手里

最好的 - 于文文&伊一
作词：李怡萱
作曲：于文文
联合创作：伊一

于：
红了的眼睛
你将我的手放在掌心
没太多言语
你的爱一向沉默安静
那一些倔强的任性
那被宠坏的孩子气
留在我的房间里
随时随地家都在这里

伊：
教我认识自己
教我看世界的勇气
把最好的我交给爱我的手里
让幸福继续陪着前进

合：
当成长写着日记
快乐悲伤我都珍惜
在最好的时刻里遇见了爱情
认真的练习认真沉溺
想在一起 

于：
关上了耳语
爱和我约定放心相信
满天的星星
太多的愿望触不可及

伊：
唯一如信仰般确定
是爱情动人的语气
能让我专心聆听
风和日丽都变成风景

于：
学着不只自己
学两人世界的勇气
看最好的我走进爱我的心里
让幸福继续陪着前进

合：
任时间筛出默契
一颗真心多不容易
在最好的时刻里酿成了爱情
醉人的微醺醉人着迷
想在一起 

于：
教我认识自己
教我看世界的勇气
把最好的我交给爱我的手里
让幸福继续陪着前进

合：
当成长写着日记
快乐悲伤我都珍惜
在最好的时刻里遇见了爱情
认真的练习认真沉溺

伊：
想在一起 于：
不再犹豫 伊：
想在一起 于：
说我愿意

于文文 say the first half of the song is a love letter of a daughter to the dad, and the second half is a love letter to the daughter's groom. I was particularly touched especially when 伊一  shared her father's letter to her, on growing up and on wedding. And I thought of my dad when I hear this song. All the reasons why I chose this path now is because of him. I always remember that scene "看最好的我走进爱我的心里 让幸福继续陪着前进".

Thank you dad. And may you be forever blessed. 

我年幼时坚持过什么

I always know song writing is tough even though I don't have the music talent. But watching the season <<无限歌谣季>> really prove how tough it is to turn someone who don't know how to sing into someone who can sing, write and maybe even dance.

Yesterday when I watched the second song written by 薛之谦 & 杨迪 again, I went back to find the first song he wrote with 岳云鹏. If I could, I would have downloaded Kugou but sadly country restrictions. Because I think I'm smitten by him haha. He has a pained look whenever he is not being funny. And a tough past which probably contributed to his pained look. All (talented) musicians probably have wider spectrum of their emotions. Maybe that's why they easily fall into the abyss of depression.

Funny that I don't have any talent but I can if I don't control myself, fall into such abyss of depression. That's why sometimes I do ask myself,

我年幼时坚持过什么， 我现在又在坚持什么呢？
还好大家匆忙没人管。。。
我疲倦的灵魂重演着, 醒来后继续活着。

p/s: No matter what risks I raised, the project will continue to repeat its mistakes. This is the reality, of how ambitious powerful people thinks they can make fast food style system implementation in this upcoming 21st century. I shudder to think of the 22nd century. GA, please, I don't wish to re-incarnate.

醒来 (Live)
- 薛之谦/岳云鹏
词：薛之谦/岳云鹏
曲：薛之谦
编曲：黎偌天

薛：
我莫名又来了孤独感
可城市分明人山车海
有一片树叶在飘过来
证明了 我的存在

岳：
我抱怨着生活的艰难
 嘲笑着别人的勇敢
要喝醉了助兴谈离散
展示出 我的难堪
那羡慕的烟火去哪了
那信任的朋友疏远了
我年幼时坚持过什么
你们还记不记得

 薛：
我轻狂的样子被席卷了
我心爱的姑娘她不等了
在生活里换来了什么
这一切值不值得

岳：
所以 请你 同意
我回去拿个行李

 薛： 如果可以 我想找回我自己

岳：
我嬉笑后怎么会伤感
还好大家匆忙没人管
谁不想有退路或依靠感
让思念入土为安

薛：
我面具已泛不出情感
感谢你赐我窒息感
让我们看上去不太艰难
心里还留着期盼

合：
我沙滩的城堡去哪了
我捍卫的小草枯萎了
我年幼时坚持过什么
你们还记不记得
 我自私的样子生长着
我内心的斗争停止了
我现在又变成了什么

薛： 这么做值不值得
岳： 所以 请你 同意
薛： 我回去拿个行李

合：
我疲倦的灵魂重演着
我沧桑的肉体缝补了
我梦境里追逐着什么
醒来后哭着笑了
醒来后继续活着

告訴自己 我要堅強

Bell 宇田
我们

記得從前的那個走廊
你搭著我的肩膀
是我一生 最好的時光
因為有你我勇敢夢想
哪怕千萬人阻擋
朋友是一種信仰

 * 好想 輕輕靠在
你的身旁 和從前一樣
不去 任何地方
只要有你 都是天堂
我的心事你幫我收藏
你頭髮我幫你綁
一起經過了憂傷
為何 眼光放得這麼長
如果最好 就在身旁

Repeat *
 好想 牽著你們
走在街上 看人來人往
就算 白髮蒼蒼
也要記得 那老地方
今天晚上我卸下了妝
看著自己的臉龐
告訴自己 我要堅強

I heard this song on 2nd June, on a train to Amsterdam Muiderpoort. The first train station I alighted a decade ago after the snow storm with my friend CL.

I have been thinking a lot of things. From friendship, work, love, marriage... I wondered, and i pondered as this song repeats again and again.

These days, I give up alot on family and friends because of the huge amount of work and stress. To the extent I worry daily, if i will die of overwork like the Japanese do. I worry about the pain on the left of my chest daily. I worry about the lack of sleep. And I think about the past where I have my friends to support me then.

How do I resolve this vicious life cycle? How will GA guide me? When I lost my wallet the next day (3rd June)... the very first time I lost a wallet.. and in a foreign country... I started reflecting. Has life brought me to such a state that I am incapable of even performing my every day duties. I am grateful that GA still protected me (I think). At least I only lost a credit card and an ov card. I dont remember what else is in the wallet other than cash and receipts. And because I got tired that I gave up collecting receipts, it felt I got tired of living and spending too.

It took me one week... and I still question myself every day... why did I lost my wallet. Is it so that I dont lose my sanity and thus this is just a pre-warning.

Month of June, where I take leave every mon & fri to force myself to rest.
Will I get the respite I need desperately? Do I know what life is installed for me? Can I find my path?

25th June update:
After taking 3 days off, I cancelled the rest of my last 2 week leave ... To be taken in Aug :)