One month of on-the-bench but I hardly stepped into my thoughts world. Nor stepped into my correspondence world. My indulgence were simple - Pokemon, Kdrama, Inferno.
While reading Inferno, one learned the great love story of Dante & Beatrice. And one wonders how could one love someone whom he only met twice in a span of 9 years. Courtly love it was described.
But was it really practiced in real life before? Maybe if we were simpler in thoughts?
How simple? Like flying over to meet the parents and hoping that all will be happily ever after. Sweet but will it work in real life? I will never know in this time frame. And so this 2015/2016 proposal, will finally be shredded up after months of deliberation. Because I have been threatened countless times, and K has been harassed several times. I once wanted to keep mementos but even in Kdrama, the leads always burn away the mementos of their past to go forward with the future. And since I was labelled not a simple girl, even if it hurts, I will let it go finally. Cos I no longer have the energy to struggle to keep friendships. Years of conditioning to be a hermit has finally made me into what I am now. Elusive. And all these fighting, will only taint the happy memories. I once wanted something simple. I still do. So as with every temple visits, I will continue to pray for my simple wish and to seek guidance for the path to be on.
While reading Inferno, one learned the great love story of Dante & Beatrice. And one wonders how could one love someone whom he only met twice in a span of 9 years. Courtly love it was described.
But was it really practiced in real life before? Maybe if we were simpler in thoughts?
How simple? Like flying over to meet the parents and hoping that all will be happily ever after. Sweet but will it work in real life? I will never know in this time frame. And so this 2015/2016 proposal, will finally be shredded up after months of deliberation. Because I have been threatened countless times, and K has been harassed several times. I once wanted to keep mementos but even in Kdrama, the leads always burn away the mementos of their past to go forward with the future. And since I was labelled not a simple girl, even if it hurts, I will let it go finally. Cos I no longer have the energy to struggle to keep friendships. Years of conditioning to be a hermit has finally made me into what I am now. Elusive. And all these fighting, will only taint the happy memories. I once wanted something simple. I still do. So as with every temple visits, I will continue to pray for my simple wish and to seek guidance for the path to be on.
